I am just so exhausted… So utterly exhausted. It’s never going to change .. I don’t think I will ever change I think I’m just always gunna be fucked up. I’m just so tired , so tired of it. I’m so tired of always being tired but not getting to sleep at night like I desperately need all day, so tired of no motivation to do anything . I’m tired of always being sick from lung infections to strep throat, always on a new medication , it never seems to stop. I’m tired of being moody, and freaking out over the littlest things than right after apologizing for my sheer stupidity and fucked up ness in the situation. I’m tired of walking around like I’m alive when I am clearly dying inside, tired of silently screaming out for help; waiting for people to see the pain in my eyes. Tired of no one helping , no one stopping to say , “hey, are you okay” . I’m fucking not okay, I’ve never been this bad. I’m sick and tired of society, the world, life.
Most of all; I’m tired of living.