I had a couple handfulls of cigarette butts and loose change thrown at me today from a pickup truck.
They were all screaming ‘******!’.
I hate my face.
I don’t know what I did wrong, but I have no friends to talk to.
I don’y fit into anyone’s clique in highschool so I’ve just taken to skipping and getting high all the time.
I’m pretty sure weed and music are the only things keeping me alive because I never eat anymore.
My life has no purpose, I’ve missed work again today and I’ll probably be fired.
I know how to tie a noose and I have a support beam to hang it.
Any comments would be nice. Just to know that people exist.
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People are cruel. There will always be people like that. People that will make you feel worthless. Unfortunately, we let them get to us. I can definitely relate to this. As much as they make me feel like complete shit, I know in my heart that I’m the good person and the bad person. Your life DOES have purpose. To us. Are you new here? You can always talk to any of us, we don’t judge and we’re here to help each other and get help.
they are the bad person*
I can’t believe people would do that! I’m sorry that there are shitty people in this world. I’ve already harped today about not having a “purpose” in life, so I get what you’re saying. Not having friends/people to talk to makes it very difficult to get through life. And no, I’m sure you didn’t do anything wrong. We are here “existing” to listen and help….
i can relate to all of the things your saying, its the worst feeling. but dont give up. i know i dont know you but i feel like if you can survive it i might be able to as welll. so far the only thing i have that keeps me a little bit happy is this website, it lets me know people care. just keep posting how you feel and ill support you and so will others(:
It seems like you know who you are though. You know you don’t like the cliques and you love music. Hold on to that. Do you live in a small town?
I know how you feel that same this happen to me….
24k people, 3 highschools, a bunch of degenerate hockey kids with access to beer and guns. I don’t belong here.
@itsyoursmyfriend :
Read my story “left behind” … You will see we are not that different… I smoke copious amounts of weed, which I credit to me having made it through 20 years of HELL…..
I am now trying to obtain my license to smoke, but my doctors un-ethically refused to sign my forms… So I have to do it online for $400 over skype from green leaf medical clinic.
About the people that threw crap at you while driving by and called you “******”… I had the EXACT same thing happen to me on more than one occasion, and ****** is always what they say… I am not a mean person, I am nice, and I never did anything to deserve it… Yet even though I am out of school, and working, I still get called “******” by people driving by…. Its such a horrible thing to experience.
Some people have no respect. I am surprised, I thought I was the only one… But I guess its wrong to think that considering there has to be another asshole somewhere in the world that is doing the same thing to someone else….