im everything thats wrong

and nothing that is right

she tells me im ugly

and i would never become anything

i am worthless to her

but she still keeps me…

as if i was her toy

her little stress doll

just being constricted by her very own

pain

it fucken kills me to know

that my own mother is ashamed of me

i have apoligized to her many times before

for being me..

i can’t get fucken through this

everything she ever told me is still in my head

because of her

i hurt myself before

and i still struggle not to hurt myself today

i convince myself everyday

that there are people out there

hurting more than i do

kids

who suffer without doing anything to deserve it

im an ungrateful ***** just like she told me

she was right

after all i should be happy

i have everything i would need to live right

what i cant understand is why i feel so wrong