hey to who ever is reading this. I am a question nothing else question that questions. Shit happened in my life but they just arent the reason why I feel this way. I wish I would discribe my feelings but I cant. I yelled at my mom told her I wanted to kill myself she did nothing. Today she told me to stop being this “negative” there are alot of people who has it bad. that doesn’t change anything. Its just how I am. Few times since 2 years I got happy and cried it feels weird feeling that way. Most my time at school I need to smile its like they hate you for not being happy my classmates friends mom. they want you to tell them something positive or to shutup. I rather not talk then be fake it hurts my mouth enough to smile I dont want to go speak fake. I forget stuff often.. So what happens now can someone tell me
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save me
stay strong man (or girl?) .. a lot of ppl don’t understand this kind of stuff.. mostly because.. they don’t know what it’s like.. positive thinking will help.. i deal with this and what I realize is when I go down that hole.. and I think more and more negatively.. it’s a rolling ball.. and everything in my life just kind of gets shittier and shitter..
a therapist might help but i’ve found that sometimes it’s like talking to a wall.. anyways stay strong and keep ur chin up
so yeah.. i dunno if I’m helping but yeah..
My mom doesn’t care now either. Something I just thought of “anger I can handle,it’s hate that is destroying me, and I wish it would hurry up.