I shouldent feel the way i do im 13 years old i already have severe depression, i iust moved schools everyone likes me but i fucking hate it because of the negative parts of my brain theres cutters There i see them at least one a day i already feel like cutting but i just scrach my self realy bad because i just dont have the guts but one day ill just do it, then i come home to one of two diffrent houses ones is my mums she dose heroin im pretty sure i kinda seen it today i almost od today and at mums my little brothers is a red headed drug baby ugghh hes the biggest 7 yearold fuck head on earth he always tells me he hopes i die and hel kilzl me n stuff like that then my little sister can be bitchy and my step dad can be a **** when he wants to. And my fathers i dont even wanna try to explain . I have suisidle thoughts like getting in accidents and stuff but i dont want to hurt the people who love me tonigh i dont know if i can take it i think ill end the pain tonight but anyways thanks for the ear x
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Hi fml_help. God that’s a lot of s*** for such a young person. I hope you can post again and tell us more about you? I suppose the awful thing about being so young, apart from all the usual hormonal stuff, is not being old enough to live independently. So you’re stuck with whatever lousy circumstances you’re born into. We lost a young member of the suicide project just yesterday, she was only 15, her sufferings were very real to her, but so easy to be dismissed as just another messed up teen crying for attention.
I’m so sorry fml_help. Sorry about your mum, your stepdad, sister and brother and the father you don’t want to talk about. We’re here to listen any time you want to talk. Hope today gets better for you babes (are you female or male?). Zoe x