Advice?

Well, ive had tons of sex, and plan on getting more before i pass away, i have alot of ppl who love me, and some who are inlove with me, but thats not enough, ive tryed 3 time this past month but hanging yourself is not easy, soo… i need to find a new way, i have ideas so i gotta do more research, i dont want to leave pain to the ppl who really love me, but im selfish and i dont really give a shit, this is my life, and i will live and die how i want to, im not scared of hell, ive accually seen shit and had exorsisums in 2011, but now..its really time to catch the bus, the way im going, i wont make it another month.