Chris was my savior…. I loved you Chris why? I just couldn’t tell him I couldn’t get on my knees and beg him to take me back. Pride…. but it hurts, I couldn’t begin to describe the pain. Chris you’ve ruined me. I have to stop feeling because my heart would stop if it tried to keep beating through the constant hiccupps of endless crying. There are not enough tears…. But I hate you. How could you do this to me.!? Such toxic emotions would surely poison me and send me right to my grave. So I fake a smile and drift off through the day, never quite in reality anymore because it’s just too much… why Chris?
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I’m going through the same. The only reason I was living was because my love of 4 years loved me so much. Or so I thought. he suddenly left me when his college began.
Why dear, why? You were the only reason I kept living, I am left with nothing else to live for. My family wants me to go, my friends are none, you were by my side to keep me upright. You were here, smiling by my side yesterday, what happened baby? What made you leave so abruptly? Don’t leave me here, I’m beginning to break, piece by piece i am falling out, maybe someday someone will show you the scattered pieces of my in-existence, and then you will think of me, once again..
Stay strong. I know this might sound very very bitchy and awful in your ears, but you WILL find someone else. I had that too. I was in love and he just left me for another girl. And he didn’t even like her, she just gave him sex while I wasn’t ready…
Keep living, stay strong and if you want to talk, pop me a message
Lots of love, incomplete<33