okay so i think it started when i was in kindergarden. i didnt talk, at all. i knew how to and understood everything but i was just toooo embarrassed to. i was able to talk to some people one on one but never in a group. all i really did was nod, shrug or point. i got ovr it when i started high school, i was teased a lot and people would say im mute. it really took a toll in school, i wsnt able to do group projects or presentations or anything that involved talking to people. people ask me why and i honestly dont know why. its shy x a million + stubborness. i blocked out that whole part of my life, the people in my life now doesnt even know about that becaue its pretty embarrassing. i just want to know if anyone else went through that. thinking about it now just made me realize how bizzare and fucked up i really am.
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Most people would say im a mute too, all through school I never if ever talked unless i had/needed to. I guess thats why i never had any friends, although i was able to avoid the teasing. I don’t even talk much to my parents now that i think about it. Id like to know how you were able to get over it? Mine has stayed consistant for as long as i can remember.
Sounds familiar 😛 only no embaresement I just hated everyone I couldn’t understand they disgustid me how they acted what they did and I didn’t want to talk to them because words felt useless to me I didn’t see talkin as a necessity so I rarely did it I still rarely do it and I’m going into 10th grade people used to make fun of me but I didn’t care verbal abuse doesn’t matter unless u care about the person who is saying it they stoped making fun of me cuz someone slapped me and I knocked him out without hesitation and walked away without talking 😛 so yes I know what the feeling is like I just didnt know why people felt the need to talk … Until I met my gf her voice was sweet and I lulled me into happiness I didnt want to talk but it got her to talk so I did … I rarely see her it’s has been about 5 or 6 months but that isnt what I’m trying to say sorry :p but yes I did go through that but everyone is different so there experience with it is a little different But the feeling is still the same
@Alwaysalone22 I hated my problem. I was turning into a teenager and I wanted to be normal , to simply put it. I did have friends I have no idea how but I did, and I was pretty much a shadow. I was doing bad in school and being that way forever is just pure torture on yourself. Always struck in awkward situations like when someone is waiting for a response I just look at the ground as everyone is staring at me which embarrassed me more. I wasnt badly teased people just made jokes and I did sign language using my middle finger. But it took time, I slowly just talked. I was very scared but I really pushed myself. I was embarrassed when someone said ” oh my God she talked! ” but I just slowly talked more to people then I got a little more comfortable. Its easier trying to talk with strangers. Like a cashier at the super market. The more you push your self and do it the easier it will be. How old are you?
I knew a girl like that but she had a form of autism.
No, but I fell in a cattle grid once.
@Lisap im 26. Its not so much that im nervous or anxious to speak its more of i dont think i have anything to say. Its when there are those long pauses where i guess i was supposed to say something but didn’t that make me anxious and self-concious. I don’t know, i wish that i just knew when i should say something or not.
naa alot are fucked up no worries. we feel normal hearing each others fuckedupnesses (i hope you get what i am trying to say lol)
Lol. It was just weird. I’m fine now besides the depression.