I feel as if there is literally no place for me here; that this life is a cage. Sometimes I think maybe I was not born in the right time or place. Â In my short 24 year life, I have never been able to “belong”, regardless of where I search or who I interact with. Some people believe that our souls choose what kind of life we’ll have before we are physically born, in order to learn some important lesson or another. I can imagine my soul saying, “Hmm, I think I’ll live a life of failure, depression, social rejection and utter worthlessness that will eventually drive me to suicide. Sounds good.”
So I’m wondering, does anyone else feel a strong sense of just not belonging here? And if you do, what do you think is the reason(s) for it?
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I do, constantly. I think a lot of it has to do with the “family” I was born into. Most of them are drug addicts and thieves. My mother is a selfish ***** and thinks I owe her something when she hasn’t done a damn thing for me my entire life..besides give me life. Thanks Mom. I seem to have a hard time making friends as well.
I’ve never felt like I belong any where i’ve gone. I believe its because im worthless and my life is meaningless. Im sure i dont have any friends or people that care about me becasue of something im sure i did, or didn’t do. I tend to believe that some people are born into this world very important, and some less so, and others less so than them, utnil you reach people like me who don’t mean anything.
I wonder if we just have real sh1tty karma or something….
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Most of the time. There were times where I have felt a sense of belonging, but these were few and far between.
Nope. Can’t say I ever felt like I was not of this world, but I (along with millions other on this planet probably) have felt the bitter taste of rejection and feeling lonely. But to ur point: maybe, just maybe our souls have to go through some stages of growth to get to our end goal (which I don’t have the slightest of clue what the fuck that might be) that dictated by a higher being, cause like u say no one in there right mind ever would say “hey like me see how it must feel like to want to kill myself on a daily basis and enjoy the feel of being lonely and with no coping skills”
Ur right about that