Is it the right time or not? We all know what it is: suicide.
I will try not write long. School is back in exactly one week. I do not have a job yet. I did apply for everything that I can. But, still I haven’t got any calls yet. I feel like I’m useless. The only thing that is keeping me from being depressed
are the shows that I watch everyday or I recorded through my DVR (which I probably will not see in my lifetime). I know you can say that I don’t have any reasons to be depressed. But I think either a middle/first class person or a lower class person may a have a chance to suffer through depression. And I transitioned to being a lower class person from being a middle class for a long time. My parents work very hard. They even stay at their work for five days just to earn a very low paycheck.
I will be home alone for exactly three days. I don’t know if I should do it or not. I don’t even know how to kill myself. There is no need to be sympathetic nor empathetic to me because I am very used to not have both of them. It is because I don’t have any friends that will understand and possibly solve this problem with me. So, I salute all of those who got a chance to survive their life problems because I know it is very tough to eliminate it. And to all of us who still can’t solve our problems, you will all be in my mind.
1 comment
3 days isn’t long enough, especially if you’ve not done any proper research into things such as methods. I’ve been planning my own demise for 12 months, and I’m only JUST getting close to being ready.
If you’re back at school in a week, then that should keep you going for a while. I’m guessing you’re at college? What are you studying? Keep applying for jobs as well, something is bound to come up sooner of later.
All the best.