well yea…know what you mean – just meant if you wanted to get something off your mind and talk to someone. I hope imperfect is good at random conversations…
Bananas. Aren’t they the ones good for giving you potassium, and for your eyes? Or is that just some old wives tale? I also suck at cutting up bananas…needed to do it for work, and I just failed. Little boy?
Don’t be sorry, not for me. I’m not worth it… I’m going fucking crazy. I keep checking the corner to see if she’s there, i’m almost certain that someone is watching me… He’s not here.
We all want Silentblue to come back, Nat. I guess all we can do is wait and see what develops. My understanding is that he is still in the desert, and that he has limited his communication. All messages to us here at SP will be going through orangish, I believe. I can understand his point of view, I guess now more than ever Silentblue needs clarity of thought. I guess that engaging with just one person rather than a few will probably help keep his mind on track.
I think part of it to is that talking to people on here might weaken his resolve, as we all want him to just stay safe and try to find an easier way to do his soul searching.
Can someone, whoever sees this… Please just promise me that everything is going to be okay? Because i’m really scared… And don’t want to sleep because of it…
I can’t tell the future or have all the answers, Nat :/ But I really think right now, everything will be okay. And in time things can work out and be okay…
everything is a lot Nat, no one can promise that “everything” will be ok, because there are always gonna be some problems, is there anything specifically you really need to be ok?
you will dream Nat but they are just dreams no matter how bad or weird they might be, they can’t actually hurt you, and well if she is gonna watch you sleep sounds like she will have a pretty boring night, and she can’t hurt you either
I think it was avenged sevenfold, but it wasn’t the music. I think it was because it was really dark in my room and i could only hear the music due to headphones… Then i just got this feeling that lots of people were staring at me, and closing in on me…. 🙁
I can’t sleep with the light on. (i think it’s to do with the ocd)… But i sometimes wonder if daniel watches me… Most of the time he is lying next to me.
I don’t think daniel sees them…. And i tell him anything and everything. Like i said, i don’t actually know if he’s listening… He just kinda looks at me with those big grey eyes… :/
well it probably feels good to just talk about stuff even if he isn’t listening. Daniel would probably be pretty jealous if he knew about the others, so what do you listen to other then Avenged Sevenfold. I have been finding myself listening to Mumford and Sons, and The J Band alot lately
Others? I only have two… Daniel and the woman who always comes at night… :/ and i listen to mostly heavy metal? Like blink 182, bullet for my valentine, mcr… All that kind of stuff. 🙂
Blink 182 isnt heavy metal 😛 its a good band though, well you said you felt like you were being watched by lots of people felt and they were closing in so I assumed it was more then just Daniel and the other one, does the woman ever talk, is she connected to Daniel in some way?
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Hey Nat.
What’s on your mind, or anything( random even ) you want to talk ’bout?
Awh… Urm… Hi… 🙁
I always have things on my mind. But right now… I just want to distract myself from the suicidal thoughts.
So what’s bothering you?
well yea…know what you mean – just meant if you wanted to get something off your mind and talk to someone. I hope imperfect is good at random conversations…
Let’s do this… Tell me something about… Bananas? O.o or that little boy i just saw… O.o
Not really, but I’ll try.
Well…how do you peel your banana?(:
Bananas. Aren’t they the ones good for giving you potassium, and for your eyes? Or is that just some old wives tale? I also suck at cutting up bananas…needed to do it for work, and I just failed. Little boy?
I just saw a little boy… Maybe a young daniel? O.o
What’d he look like?
Yes bananas have a lot of potassium(:
did he look like a younger daniel?
He was small and quite thin… With black hair, cut like how your mum would do it with a pan… O.o and grey eyes? Like daniels… Or maybe they were brown…
well did he say anything?
No… It was just like am image? Like when daniels showing me something…
so you think maybe daniel was showing you the little boy?
Hm, didn’t even move? Just image then went away?
Yeah… And maybe he was?…. I really want silentblue… But he’s not here anymore…
He’s here, he just needs some time to himself
well that doesn’t really sound bad or ominous or anything. Maybe you can figure out what it means if the little boy shows up again
I’m sorry….
Don’t be sorry, not for me. I’m not worth it… I’m going fucking crazy. I keep checking the corner to see if she’s there, i’m almost certain that someone is watching me… He’s not here.
Yeah, I saw blue post a bit ago just saying he needs a break with things that have happened.
We all want Silentblue to come back, Nat. I guess all we can do is wait and see what develops. My understanding is that he is still in the desert, and that he has limited his communication. All messages to us here at SP will be going through orangish, I believe. I can understand his point of view, I guess now more than ever Silentblue needs clarity of thought. I guess that engaging with just one person rather than a few will probably help keep his mind on track.
I think part of it to is that talking to people on here might weaken his resolve, as we all want him to just stay safe and try to find an easier way to do his soul searching.
I didn’t even get to say goodbye…
Can someone, whoever sees this… Please just promise me that everything is going to be okay? Because i’m really scared… And don’t want to sleep because of it…
Hey Nat, it’ll be okay… Mmk? Everything is going to be okay.
Everything… All of it?
I can’t tell the future or have all the answers, Nat :/ But I really think right now, everything will be okay. And in time things can work out and be okay…
everything is a lot Nat, no one can promise that “everything” will be ok, because there are always gonna be some problems, is there anything specifically you really need to be ok?
Right now. Tonight… I’m scared to sleep…
What is it Nat?
no reason to be scared to sleep Nat you probably do it everyday and its always ok
I’ll stay up with you if you are.
You’re going to be okay Nat, you can sleep and then it’ll be morning before you know it. Ok?
And as imperfect said, we’re all here while you’re awake.
What if i dream again? And what if she watches me sleep?
just put your favorite album on loop and listen to it until you drift off, then you can wake up to it to 🙂
I’ve been here for about 10 hours, don’t mind another 10 before bed.
you will dream Nat but they are just dreams no matter how bad or weird they might be, they can’t actually hurt you, and well if she is gonna watch you sleep sounds like she will have a pretty boring night, and she can’t hurt you either
I was listening to music… But that’s what brought on this crazy moment…
I can’t stand the thought of people watching me… That’s why i try my hardest to avoid busy public places…
why did the music bring it on? what were you listening to maybe you shouldnt listen to whatever it was again
Maybe try listening to different music?
everyone hates being watched, so just hied under the blanket so she can’t see you 🙂
I think it was avenged sevenfold, but it wasn’t the music. I think it was because it was really dark in my room and i could only hear the music due to headphones… Then i just got this feeling that lots of people were staring at me, and closing in on me…. 🙁
you could sleep with a light on if you don’t like the dark, and noone is going to hurt you while you sleep Nat
I can’t sleep with the light on. (i think it’s to do with the ocd)… But i sometimes wonder if daniel watches me… Most of the time he is lying next to me.
well daniel can’t do anything to you either, tell him he can’t sleep there get him his own little doggie bed I bet he would love that 😀
Ahaha! :3 but when he’s lying next to me at night is the time when he just listens, usually. So i don’t mind him being there.
Maybe Daniel could shoo all those people away so you can get some rest?
what do you tell him when he is just listening?
I don’t think daniel sees them…. And i tell him anything and everything. Like i said, i don’t actually know if he’s listening… He just kinda looks at me with those big grey eyes… :/
well it probably feels good to just talk about stuff even if he isn’t listening. Daniel would probably be pretty jealous if he knew about the others, so what do you listen to other then Avenged Sevenfold. I have been finding myself listening to Mumford and Sons, and The J Band alot lately
Others? I only have two… Daniel and the woman who always comes at night… :/ and i listen to mostly heavy metal? Like blink 182, bullet for my valentine, mcr… All that kind of stuff. 🙂
Blink 182 isnt heavy metal 😛 its a good band though, well you said you felt like you were being watched by lots of people felt and they were closing in so I assumed it was more then just Daniel and the other one, does the woman ever talk, is she connected to Daniel in some way?
No, she doesn’t talk…. And thought maybe it’s his wife? But he ignores her, i don’t think he even sees her… So i don’t think its that. O.o
haha maybe she was his wife and now he just doesn’t want to see her 🙂
Maybe? O.o i’m going to try get some sleep now, thanks for keeping me company. 🙂 that goes for everyone on this post. <3
good luck Nat sweet dreams!
Good night Nat.
Night night. 🙂
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