if i wasnt such a whore. if i wasnt such a smart-ass. if i was the same goody goody i was couple years back. i’d take it everything back just to live in peace.
@fix or repair: well it ties in w/ my parents, they hate me cuz ive sent provacative pics to stranger online, they hate me cuz i spend my day browsing SP. i now dont care what happens to me i do what i want. i have now apparently turned into something dispicable making my parents hate me. so yes i am that bad apparently
how old are you if you dont mind me asking?
i had a shit childhood with my mother she used to mentally and physically abuse me , not nice having a bleach bath and getting scrubbed with a nail brush because i was ‘dirty’ , and as long as you havent killed any body and your not a pediophile you got loads going for you , your still alive thats a start ?
things allways seem worse than they are , take a deep breath …..
step back and i’m sure you will see your not so bad after all
chin up
@fix or repair, i dont no why but the “and as long as you havent killed any body and your not a pediophile you got loads going for you , your still alive thats a start ?” bit made me laugh out loud. its very true though
sad but it is true , i guess if your here you gota have a strange sence of humour in the first place , i got caught the other week trying to hang meself , i just had to laugh it off , shame really …….
if i can stop / help just one other person from feeling same/similar as me i think it would make me feel a bit better and give me reason not to do it again
thanks , it still seems strange to me . but hey ho ……..
my thoughts of late are – lets she what tomorrow might bring …..
could be good could be bad – nobody knows
@fix or repair: im 15 and so far if u read any other posts of mine my sister torments me and my parents just dont get me. if i can get away from my family i will be happier until then i believe what they tell me…im horrible.
dont be daft , you got your whole life ahead of you – i can think of a hundred things i would rather do than sit around taking crap off your sister , depending on where you are in the world and how much you really want to get away from your parents there are plenty of other options bar the ‘suicide’ route , you could move away , go stay with some body else in the family , worst case senario declair you self home-less and go stay at a hostel , it sounds grim but you would get your own space away for a bit ? maybe you just need a break away from day to day life , like a cottage / caravan by a lake some where calm and quiet so you can have a little “you” time ?
hope this helps
I agree, leave, get out as soon as you can
I left home when I was 14 – whilst I exposed myself to a lot of pain – I don’t regret it.
Or, get support whilst living there, learn to switch off from them. I have developed an amazing ability to switch off from people – it happens automatically. It annoys the crap out of people – but keeps me safe. mwaahha. don’t give your sister the power – make a life for yourself despite her. away from home. Get the right support around you and go for it. Don’t let anyone bring you down. You build your life up girl. I wish I could go back to 15 (hope that’s not patronizing) and start things over – I never even thought to ask for help.. rooting for you. You CAN do this. don’t let your sister win, show her she WON’T bring you down. please.
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im sure your not that bad ?
life is crap an mean but you need something to moan about ! (dont we all?)
chin up
@fix or repair: well it ties in w/ my parents, they hate me cuz ive sent provacative pics to stranger online, they hate me cuz i spend my day browsing SP. i now dont care what happens to me i do what i want. i have now apparently turned into something dispicable making my parents hate me. so yes i am that bad apparently
how old are you if you dont mind me asking?
i had a shit childhood with my mother she used to mentally and physically abuse me , not nice having a bleach bath and getting scrubbed with a nail brush because i was ‘dirty’ , and as long as you havent killed any body and your not a pediophile you got loads going for you , your still alive thats a start ?
things allways seem worse than they are , take a deep breath …..
step back and i’m sure you will see your not so bad after all
chin up
@fix or repair, i dont no why but the “and as long as you havent killed any body and your not a pediophile you got loads going for you , your still alive thats a start ?” bit made me laugh out loud. its very true though
sad but it is true , i guess if your here you gota have a strange sence of humour in the first place , i got caught the other week trying to hang meself , i just had to laugh it off , shame really …….
if i can stop / help just one other person from feeling same/similar as me i think it would make me feel a bit better and give me reason not to do it again
@ fix or repair, thats a comment i like to read!
well commenting on this site helps ppeople, and they are truly greatful for anyone who cares. so everyone on here is another reaon to live, 😉
thanks , it still seems strange to me . but hey ho ……..
my thoughts of late are – lets she what tomorrow might bring …..
could be good could be bad – nobody knows
@fix or repair: im 15 and so far if u read any other posts of mine my sister torments me and my parents just dont get me. if i can get away from my family i will be happier until then i believe what they tell me…im horrible.
dont be daft , you got your whole life ahead of you – i can think of a hundred things i would rather do than sit around taking crap off your sister , depending on where you are in the world and how much you really want to get away from your parents there are plenty of other options bar the ‘suicide’ route , you could move away , go stay with some body else in the family , worst case senario declair you self home-less and go stay at a hostel , it sounds grim but you would get your own space away for a bit ? maybe you just need a break away from day to day life , like a cottage / caravan by a lake some where calm and quiet so you can have a little “you” time ?
hope this helps
@ fix or repair: ive been welcome in multiple homes my parents wont let me leave.
I agree, leave, get out as soon as you can
I left home when I was 14 – whilst I exposed myself to a lot of pain – I don’t regret it.
Or, get support whilst living there, learn to switch off from them. I have developed an amazing ability to switch off from people – it happens automatically. It annoys the crap out of people – but keeps me safe. mwaahha. don’t give your sister the power – make a life for yourself despite her. away from home. Get the right support around you and go for it. Don’t let anyone bring you down. You build your life up girl. I wish I could go back to 15 (hope that’s not patronizing) and start things over – I never even thought to ask for help.. rooting for you. You CAN do this. don’t let your sister win, show her she WON’T bring you down. please.