I made the bad mistake of listening to the radio this morning because i didn’t have any ear phones so i could listen to my mp3. so i heard a song that reminded of of something i’ve been trying to forget for forever. the song was talking about how this girls dad was good and he makes promises that he keeps and that hes never going to leave. i wish my dad was like that because i might not be as screwed up as i am now. instead of always having my dad around i got an occasional visit from him being drunk and on drugs. when we went to stay with him he sawed more attention to making sure that he remained drunk and that he had someone there to sell drugs to or do it with. every time i went to his house i would listen and watch him beat on his girlfriend just like he had done with my mom. i hated going to see him but i still kept going back.
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That is really horrible, and definitely something that you need help with. I have two daughters and I thought I was trying my hardest to be there for them, but obviously I am not.
I think the only thing I can say, without knowing your whole story, is that maybe your Dad has demons too and he needs help. Doesn’t excuse what he has done to you, but if you can feel like you do, then he maybe feels very bad too.
I wouldn’t know if he feels bad or not i haven’t talked to him for almost four years.
That is very sad and I am very sorry for you. I think it can be assumed he is not feeling good, in reality. But I understand that doesn’t help you.
maybe not but i gave up on trying to talk to him and he never tried to contact me back… which in all things might actually be better in the long run