Do you ever just wish you could stop breathing? Just cease to exist? I just feel no joy for life….I don’t feel happiness… I don’t really feel anything at all. People look at me and think I’m doing better and I’m not. I’m basically lying to everyone and it kills me. I’m not better. I’m still cutting multiple times a day and most days all I can focus my mind on is death…. I haven’t felt this down in a while and I’m just not sure how to pick myself up.
I think I had a nervous breakdown Sunday night…. a couple things happened with my family and I suddenly was short of breath..it felt like suddenly there was absolutely no air in the room. I was crying uncontrollably…sobbing… I heard it and honestly didn’t realize that it was me crying that loud. I lay in my bathroom floor for three hours, unable to move..basically paralized there on the floor. There was a huge puddle from tears when I got up. Ever since I have been shaking…. 2 days of shaking constantly. Anything that happens I get short of breath. I feel out of control….I can’t sit still and I can’t really function. I don’t know what’s happening to me
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I kw u were not oka!!!!!!! Need to talk????? – Layne
That happened to me once … I really hope you’re feeling better now. Try talking to a friend or something ? I’m here if you need me >>> n-madrid98@hotmail.com
I feel like this is something I would write. It makes me really sad because when I was unable to move from the floor, holding myself together, crying all the tears I had left, called everyone I knew to save me.. No one came. When people start thinking you are getting better its because you are starting to feel more alone and tend to keep everything to yourself and it builds up until you break down and by the sounds of it you’ve completly broke down. But what you have to scream to yourself now is that you can build it back up the way you want to be.. Don’t look at this as the end, please, fight.
i have felt like this so many times in my life… i completely understand..
Sounds like a panic attack maybe?