I really want to kill myself. I’m ugly. Ugly. Ugly. I hate myself. I fucking hate myself.
He likes me because of my personality, not because of my looks. And it fucking hurts.
And to be honest I have never wanted to have a good personality. I just want to be drop dead gorgeous. That’s all I want. Nothing else, nothing else….
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It’s AWESOME to have a great personality, don’t sell yourself so short. It’s always wonderful to feel beautiful on the outside, too… I know but trust me, being liked for your personality is NOT a bad thing at all. The rest will come.
all guys are ugly!
I thought that’s was important, to be liked because of your personality.
That’s annoying, but guys who like you for your looks don’t relate to you in any real way. It’s just too hard for them & all they do is say shallow stupid things. It’s totally just like they’re talking to their own fantasy not you & you would just end up feeling empty after being told, “oh you’re so pretty!” Then, they go after another girl b.c. the whole thing was so shallow & they need to chase their fantasy. I read about this dynamic somewhere & I also knew a guy who treated me that way but he couldn’t relate to me at all & then he went after some Barbie looking girl.
If someone only wants you for your looks, then you will never be treated like an individual by them. You may think you are, but you’re not. The ‘feelings’ that he will claim he has for you, will be total bullshit. Nothing will be real. There won’t ever be love between you and him. There won’t be anything there, except lust. Unless that’s what you’re looking for. You’ll love it at first, maybe even be happy for a while knowing that someone is always there with you thinking you’re ‘drop dead gorgeous’. But down the line, there’s not doubt that you will feel like you need more from that person.
Lol. Probably a lot of “drop dead gorgeous” girls would kill to be loved by their personality, not by their looks. Tired of boys who just want to be with them because of their bodies and beauty.
You are a very lucky person.
My little sisters friend was the ugly duckling of her family. She had a crush on me, I was 3 years older and this was when we were teens.
20 years later a woman approached me and asked if I recognised her, I could not. When she said who she was I was floored, jawed dropped about 6 inches in disbelief. This ugly little girl had grown into one of the prettiest women I had ever seen.
People tell often tell me that I am a handsome man, yet I see myself as unattractive. So alot has to do with my own perception of myself vss how others see me.
When I was little I also wished to be beautiful because of the way society values beauty in a woman over any other virtues. It’s one of the ways society has controlled and oppressed women – to be told you have no other value apart from how you look. It’s a lie, you know.
Chances are you’re not ugly at all. And you have a great personality. A spanish friend told me there’s an expression in spain – ‘the beautiful wish they had the luck of the ugly in love’ roughly translated. You are very lucky. If you were only beautiful, chances are he would just bang you and then move on to the next girl.