I found this website a few days ago when I googled “I want to die”.
I wasn’t looking for something in particular-just some kind of…answer… or help. I’m not sure if I actually want to die or not.
I’ve been reading some posts, but I’ve been afraid to comment on any… I’m extremely afraid of talking to people, especially strangers, even if it is online, but I need to talk about it to someone, or some people, who understand.
I’m horribly, horribly depressed and I’ve felt like this for years. I’ve recently spoken to my doctor about it and he’s put me on medication and referred me to a therapist, but I just feel so alone and scared and clueless. No one close to me has issues with this kind of thing and the friends I can talk to about it see it as a bad mood or as me having difficulties getting over my ex and it makes me feel like it’s a trivial problem. I feel like it’s torture to live, but I’m made to feel like it’s a petty thing to complain about, like it’s silly, like I just need to cheer up.
Finding this website, and you people who share this struggle, has made me feel less alone, but not less scared. I’m hoping I’ll be able to post more, and be able to talk to people, but I’m terrified to even post this. I’m afraid no one will respond.
I’d truly love to talk to any or all of you, knowing you exist is helping me survive.
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Don’t feel like you have to prove your sadness to the world. If the problems you have are such that they’ve brought you to this site then they are serious. It’s nice to just let all your thoughts out, especially when you’ve kept them cooped up inside your head for so long. It’s like you said people here understand how you feel, so there’s no reason to be afraid.
You’re definitely not alone <3
so appreciative <3
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You will many long posts I wrote in the spring describing suicide and depression issues and coping.
Read them.
Depression isn’t just about being down, it’s a medical condition that can rob you of a full life.
You can usually beat depression, with help.
You are off to a good start.
Good luck
I agree with the above post. there are many people on this site that are going through similar problems. I think one’s own mind can hold the worst place to be and the worst experiences to have. Depression always makes me feel alone and that there’s no tomorrow, but as it dissipates, I realize that it was just part of the depression. Hang in there and know that your posts help us get through hard times as well. Thank you for sharing with us.