I get excited on the days I don’t want to die. It’s this light feeling. It feels like I’m at a normal level today, you know? Like maybe this is what it feels like to not be worrying about my emotions. But there’s always the fear. Because I know it will come back. This is the calm after the storm.
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Even if it does come back you have the chance now to engrain the good feelings inside you, so that when the time comes there will be something to fight for.
Glad you’re feeling good today. <3
whole days without feeling like the world (more like her world really) would be better without me in it don’t happen anymore. i consider myself lucky if i can go a few minutes without thinking about leaving.
i held onto life this last year with hope. hope that she would give me another chance. but all that hope only made each passing minute that much more difficult to exist without her.
it may sound petty, or selfish, or even lame to want to kill yourself over the loss of a love so grand… but if life is worth anything at all, in my heart i believe it to be love.
rachel, i know what you mean. its scary because theres always that fear to be happy, because tomorrow may be filled with sadness. i feel it too. but i hope that you have more good days like today.
Move then if you know there is a storm coming go out and get some frsh air, go join a club….