*stands up*
Hello. My name is Rain. I currently suffer from depression and heartbreak. I also have an addiction to people and cutting.
I understand that my addiction to people stems from my fear of being alone. I’m currently working on my addiction to people by turning off all care I have for anyone other than my immediate family. Since yesterday I have not helped or checked on anyone, given out hugs or kisses, or spoken to anyone face to face about my problems. I’m here tonight because i am currently having people withdrawals and yearn for someone to love and be affectionate to. At the same time, I am having cut withdrawals and since I cannot handle them both, I will need to work on them separately. I’ve chosen which addiction to succumb to by the factor of most pain. My addiction to people usually ends up causing more pain than any ammount of cutting could ever heal so, for tonight, cutting is my elixer.
The fact that I am alive tonight shows that progress had been made.
Again, my name is Rain and I suffer from depression and heartbreak. My addictions are people and cutting.
Thank You
*sits down*
5 comments
Better to be addicted to people then being addicted to lonliness. Congratulations on making it another day.
<3
I definitely disagree…but thank you for the encouragement
*stands up*
Hello rain, my name is Chris, but I go by wednesday, but everyone knows me as Lola!
I too have a passion for self harm, but something in my head thinks this is “just alright”. I feel it’s normal, I’m just letting the pain out! Have you ever let anyone else cut you? I did once, they wanted to see my scars so I did them one better and let them make a scar on me! It got me higher than any drug I’ve ever done!
Lol idk whether to call you Chris, Wednesday or Lola..I like Wednesday. a way to let pain escape is what self harm is to me too. No I havent..maybe you shouldnt get into the habit of letting others harm you…
Then Wednesday it is!!!
It would be nice to find someone that’s willing enough to cut me again, but unfortunately I don’t work with the person who did it the first time. It was amazing for all the parties involved! He was asking me about my scars at work and that’s where I let him cut me, him or any of the other people there had never seen anything like it! I guess everybody got a littler scared that day, me physically and them mentally.
Each scar or bruise is kinda like a different chapter and I find that amazing!!!!