I have been noticing that life isnt a walk in the park. It isnt just something that is always so good. People have to experience the darkness before they experience the light or in other words experience the worst before experiencing the the good that life has to offer. Thats what kept me in the dark, not knowing or seeing the good because I didnt have a flashlight to shine out the dark. I still dont have the flashlight to shine me out the dark but im determined to find it and get out of this hole that we call depression. I have been depressed for 2 years and let me tell you , these 2 years werent my best but thats apart of life. I may be only 14 but im trying to see the good in this bad. Im tired of crying , im tired of being depressed. Suicide isnt an option so dont choose it. Its just a permanet solution to temporary pain. I , myself , thought that yeah , suicide could end my pain but imagine the pain I will pass on to my family or friends. Whoever reading this and is thinking of ending it all , I just want to say im here and I care for you tons ! You’re all beautiful and amazing. My mom wasnt there for me but what I had was myself and after sleepless nights and crying in the dark I am finally okay with it all. If you have support then please believe in yourself and tell yourself that everything will get better someday , even if it isnt now. I love you all and please , stay strong ! I may be only 14 but I understand.
Thank you for reading. Love you all 🙂
Love Always ,
Gaby xoxo
2 comments
Glad you found the will to see the light, hope you(and everyone else) keep moving forward. <3
when i was 14 i was just painfully shy and had spots lol but Id never thought of suicide even though my youth was pretty dreadful, Im now 34 and ive had depression since my early 20’s. I dont think pain is temporary there will always be some, its just when you have too much and it is hard to escape that theres a problem. I think suicide is a very selfish thing so its good that you think about your family and friends. keep finding the light!