I really don’t know.

I’m sitting here at my computer trying to figure out what I’m feeling. I’ve gotten so used to the pain, that i’m numb to it now. I really want to scream to the top of my lungs, but then people might hear me. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!