So today was the worst day. I’m 14 a freshman in high school. I know I should not think about my body shape at this she but I do, its ugly, fat, stretch marls everywhere I can’t eat I get depressed after I look at the scale 124 lbs disgusting I say to myself! I look at other girls there ihalf my size with such a nice body why can’t I be that way there’s boys at my school who have skinny beautiful girlfriends my crush says he hates chubby girls I can’t even have a boyfriend cause I’m so fat! I wish I was born skinny, beautiful, have nice boyfriends, great at hchool, popular, but my weight keeps me from those things I was to itake diet pills, get surgery, loose all my fat with liposuction but I’m to young. my mom says I’m perfect but I know I’m not! Each day I think to myself I’m not pretty I can’t do anything why even live. But then I think of my family and say withheld they miss me, will my friends miss me how would people change without me. This is actually the first time I’m saying my feelings and I feel like a weight has been lifted of of me thank you for reading my story (:
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why do girls want to be skinny all the time? dont they know us men like the thick mamas. haha. but on a serious note skinniness should not be associated with beauty. i think of it more associated with the holocaust. i doubt someone was like “damn that place sucked but at least im skinny.” 124lbs fat? are you 3’11? cause even if you were under 5 feet tall that isnt fat. those boys sound like tools. just wait till high school is over. it might seem like forever but now i can hardly remember it. all i know is that all the thick girls no one liked end up becoming the super hotchicks and get big boobs (and if not dont worry, surprisingly alot of guys are butt men, not saying you need this type of figure to get guys, just reminding you that you are basically a baby becoming more of a woman everyday, just wait) right after and you knoooow they regret it. history repeats itself, trust me, its the only movies hollywood makes for a reason… cause it happens every single day!
I’m 160 some lbs, and I’m one of the lighter-weight kids at school. Haha wonder if that says anything about the school lunches! 😛 aww crappy joke. Sorry. lol aaaannndd Lady dude, you’ll get a boyfriend who likes you because of your personality instead of your body, and that’s what’s most important. I know you’ve probably heard that a ton, but it’s true. My boyfriend hasn’t once said I’m pretty (and ik he doesn’t think so, either) and he’s not great looking, but we’re demn happy. Haha Nerrd’s love story. Thanks for bothering to read my lengthy comment that probably made absolutely noo sense, and You’re Gonna Go Far, Kid, if you really want to.
Sweetie, I wasn’t pretty in high school and I had similar feelings than you. I wanted to be the beautiful popular girl all boys wanted so I went for it. I worked hard at it and hard plastic surgery done. Later I became model and had the pretty boys I always dreamed of so I can tell you it’s not impossible. Still I recommend that you work on getting the horrible adjectives you have for yoursel
my fiances weighs more than i do, and shes a model too.
Still I recommend that you work on getting rid of those horrible adjectives you have for yourself cause otherwise those thoughts will never go away no matter how pretty you look and will affect your relationships with men in the end. Personality does count a lot than I thought. I discovered all these too late.
You can always lose weight. It’s even easier for you because you’re so young. Though, I wouldn’t suggest you to go on a diet because you’re ONLY 124 lbs. You’re going to grow into it more anyway. Your height also has a big impact on your weight, too, by the way, so remember that. I would just advise you to eat healthier but if you really want to diet, then please, do it safely. If your crush doesn’t like chubby girls, good for him. A lot of people don’t, some people do. You’ll find someone that will be interested in you for who you are, not what you are. Personally, I don’t care about the cover of the book. Interior means so much more than exterior. You have to realize that and hopefully you will someday. It’s going to take a lot of time for you to learn to love yourself for who you are regardless of how much you weigh, but it’ll be worth it. Believe me, I understand how you feel more than anyone ever could. Try your hardest not to compare yourself to all those skinnier girls or anyone for that matter. That’s the biggest problem. We compare ourselves. We’re individuals, we’re all different and that’s the beauty of it. It’s so unnecessary. It’s kind of inevitable, I know, but if you learn not to, you’ll feel so much more better about yourself.
124 pounds is not FAT!
No matter how much surgery you do or how thin you get it won’t change anything unless you can learn to see your own inner beauty. I think variety is the spice of life – if everyone looked the same it would be boring. I’m sure you’re beautiful just the way you are. Mother always know best!
Real guys like curves, trust me on this one. My current boyfriend is a pt so he has a six pack and for the longest time I wondered why he’d be with me and not a skinny *****, but he likes a little something, theres a difference begween fat and being a women, the world has made that hard to see and 124 isNOT fat. He likes me for me, he likes my curves, they are sexy to real men. Guys that like skinny bitches are usually bitches themselves. Quit blaming your weight…even though its easier
I’m a pt and I don’t care for the scrawny girls either. Most guys that want to hook up with the “Barbies” are just insecure and think that’s what they’re supposed to want. That would explain highschool guys. They would know what to do with a good woman, if she…well you get the point. Do yourself a favor and concentrate on your psychological and spiritual growth. Don’t worry about finding a guy. I assume you’re still under 18 yrs. old, so I can’t legally prove my point, but…
Hypothetical situation:
If a girl got on Craigslist and posted an ad that said “18+ year old female. Curvy (NOT SKINNY), fun to be around, good sense of humor. Looking for a guy to treat me with respect and show me a loving, tender relationship. Send pics.” The girl would receive countless replies from every type of man out there… and probably a few disturbing pictures. The point is, as guys mature, they begin to understand that a fun, romantic day with a heavier, cheerful chick, is infinitely better than a sucky day with a Ms. Anorexia.
Again, the CL ad was only a HYPOTHETICAL situation.
As to the changing your looks, if you want to go to the gym and get stronger, okay, I actually highly recommend this, I always feel better about myself and my life when I’ve worked out and I love being strong and running up mountains and achieving goals, but plastic surgery, or crash dieting will NOT make you happy and may attract men but NOT the kind you’re looking for. I took ten years and am still learning this, but now my friends and my bf tell me I’m beautiful, that they like me, and it feels more real then when I made myself anorexic thin and got compliments from creeps. It’s still hard though. I wish someone would have told me this when I was 14, and kept me from that road. Like Nolen said, work on your psychological stuff, and when you like yourself, I guarantee people will like you, people that you can rely on, and you’ll find a guy that’s worth coming home to.