today was the ending of my relationship .. 2years & 4months ended in 2secounds .. i broke up with him thinking he didint love me anymore that he never did ‘ i cried and i cried .. my ” bestfriend ” griselda said i was retarded for leting him go .. insead of cheering me up she put me down :'( i started thinking i waz stupid for leting go the lve of my lie .. so i asked hes bestfriend if he seemed sad the day i left him ? hes bestfriend said that he wasint ‘ that he waz happy tht he said he didint care </3 so i noticed somthing .. i loved him nd he never loved me .. i spent all this time wwith him and he never gave a shit aout me ! he was my eveything and he made me think i was the same to him but i was so wrong because i ment absuloutly nothing to him !!!!!!!!!! i cut myself , i punch my arm & rist until i bleed ! i hurt myself until i feel nothing ‘ ive tried to kill myself many timez but i alwayz stop and think nd then i stop .. i wish i would of not stop to think :'( i wish i would just die ‘ its not like he would caree if i died if i left the world </3 he said he would do anything for me nd he said he would never let me go ! i love him so much and i dont know what to do without him ????? hes the one tht gave me confedence , he was the one who keept me from not giving up on myself </3 he always told me that i was ONE OF A KIND :'( i belived that .. and now i dont .. i think of myself even less than befor ! i feel broken ! my heart is really broken ! my heart is in thousands of peices ! he loooked into my eyes & looked so disapointed at me .. he looked so hated at me </3 THIS IS THE ENDING TO MY LIFE </3
                                                                                                                                                                                                                     BROKENGIRL</3
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Self-deceit can be one of the worst practices. Not just failing to recognizing yourself, but also not seeing how others recognize you. I always said that if I could have any super-power, it would be to know who I could trust and to what extent I could trust them. Some times we’re too blinded by are own emotions to realize the way things really are. My advise is to keep honest friends, who won’t be afraid to let you know if your perceptions begin to get skewed. Also, don’t be afraid to look at the ones you care about, objectively. I’m not saying you should doubt people who say they’re there for you. I’m saying that you shouldn’t bet everything on such people, unless they’ve proven time and time again that they’re faithful. I know this advise brings no relief at this particular moment, but maybe it will prevent some of the future pains and disappointments. I am sorry you’re hurting, but I hope that you take my advise and move on to meeting guys that aren’t such assholes.