No point in living….

I really have nothing more to offer anymore.  I have ADHD, and while I don’t use it as an excuse, I can see where it has affected my daily life.

My g/f is mad at me because I didn’t call to say goodbye before I went camping this weekend. It seems like I’m always screwing up in the relationship by not doing the little things like being considerate enough to call her and tell her what’s going on, or if I’m gonna be late, etc. This is not HER saying these things to manipulate me; it’s the truth. I just get so focused on things that I lose track of what I need to do/should be doing. On top of that her apartment was flooded and she missed church because she was up all night cleaning. So she has had enough and there’s nothing I can say or do to make it up to her since she has given me plenty of chances.

I’ve been evicted from two apartments in less than two years because I’m not good at planning a budget and I had my wages garnished twice during that time frame. So I am back home with my family.

I have a decent job, but I’m gonna lose it because I have been threatened with a third garnishment even though I’ve been making payments on my student loan, but they are sporadic and less than what they want.

I know it seems like a cowardly way out by ending my life and part of me wants to keep fighting, but it seems that the pros outweigh the cons in terms of ending things. She (my STBXGF) won’t miss me because I really couldn’t be the man she needed, my family won’t miss me because that’s one less mouth to feed….

I think everyone will be happier in the long run.