I have been on this website a while and I have been watching people waste their lives on here. I know I have been on here too and I know that I have probably wasted alot of time on here. But this isn’t the way. If you are depressed then you need to speak to someone, get help and make yourself, no matter how hard it is, see things in a better light. You need to step out of the darkness. Get rid of the shadows in your life and become the light.
If you cut your skin, harm yourself, hate yourself then please don’t kill yourself. There are so many people out there who love you. I LOVE YOU. And you know what? I don’t even know you so that must mean you are special. Everyone is special in their own way. If you killed yourself then that is it. You are dead. You are gone. But think about all those people out there. They aren’t dead. But they have to keep on living knowing that you won’t be around anymore. They will bet he ones with the heartache and they will be the ones who end up just like you were. Depressed, alone, suicidal. It isn’t that way. Yes I know it is hard when life decides to fuck you over. But you won’t be like that forever.
Some of you are probably like ‘You don’t know shit about what I/We are going through. But you know what? I do. I was picked on. I was the outsider. I was the one with the mentally ill father. I was the one who cut myself. I was the one who attempted suicide. I was the one who had to look after everyone know matter how hard it was. I was the one who had to deal the fact that her life wasn’t perfect. I was the one with the father who wouldn’t take his medication. I was the one who would claw at my skin hoping I would drift away. I was mostly just like you. And now look at me. I am FINE. I am not amazing. But I am finally doing OK. I no longer live in darkness. I am no longer afraid to go outside. I know longer cut myself, write a suicide note and attempt to kill myself. Because I know the damage I have caused people and I need to make that all ok. So after reading this, I hope you stop what you are doing. I hope if you are going to kill yourself you out down your gun, knife, pills, rope, or whatever you have and just think. Just think. Is it worth it? Because after being through so much. You will be dead. You will be gone. And it is the people around you who will have to deal with it.