I want to be sufficient. I want to do something that matters.
I hate money, and I hate having to need it. I’ve decided I don’t want to go back to school, and I’m OK with that choice. My family thinks I’m crazy, though. If I do go back to school, it won’t be for computer science, even though I have only a few credits left to get a degree.
I like things how I like them. I don’t want a career. I don’t want an occupation. I don’t want a suburban lifestyle.
I want something more self-sufficient. A plot of land somewhere so I can maybe start a greenhouse, grow things. The problem lies in the fact that what I want is unrealistic without a source of income, and I’m uncertain how to resolve that. I hate money. I hate compromises. I hate the fact that other people go through this same cycle of whittling down their dreams until there is nothing left but a toothpick that gets thrown away at the end of the day. Dreams should be growing things, like seeds. They should grow around problems, rather than shrinking down into nothing. I’m still trying to work out how to apply this.
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Same things i’ve said before word for word. There are many options, but none of them are really tenable. I guess it just depends on how far you’re willing to go. At one point i was plannning on working a job out of a car for a few years to save up enough money to allow me to live off of rice and be homeless for the rest of my life. 30,000 dollars in rice and being homeless living in the woods. ahhh sounds great to me.
I’ve had the same ideas. The best idea I’ve seen, is this one.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mCCN4nq7BlQThe pump design they speak of in the video is a fairly simple design. I think with a decent set up, a little tweaking, a small plot of land and a well, you could be on your way to the good life. Good luck and let me know if it works out.
I actually did that for a while. Homeless, sleeping in my car, doing day labor. I loved it. I met a lot of other homeless people who had the same circumstances, yet hated it. I never understood why there was a difference in perspectives.
I feel this way too, orangish. I don’t have the same dreams as you, but they’re along the same line. If you’ve made a decision that you don’t want to go back to school, and you’re happy with it, then you’ve made the right decision for yourself. Don’t worry about what your family has to say about it. Or anybody else. I made the decision that after high school I wouldn’t go to college, since then I’ve gotten a lot of grief about it from people who have no right to stick their nose in my business, but they do it anyway. Their opinions made me second guess my decision. They even made me feel guilty. But I’m glad I stuck to my guns, because now I feel I made the right decision. Do what you love, orangish.
About needing money to live out your dream. I was going to suggest a couple a things. I think you’ve said before that you already grow some plants and things; you could sell some of the stuff that you grow. I know that wouldn’t get you a whole lot, but some thing is better than nothing. You could sell stuff on ebay, though, that takes some work. And I’m pretty sure you need a credit card. You could just do more odd jobs. Mow lawns for money? Offer to go grocery shopping for some old folks? Ah, that’s about all I can think of right now. I hope you come up with something.
Thanks, TGG. 😀
I will come up with something eventually. I make myself crazy when I think too much. Eventually, it’ll be time to stop thinking and just do.
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Intentional communities. Bunch of hippies living off he land. I dot think you need money. Or you can Go back to yr car. Lots of freetarians do this, dumpster diving for food. You don’t need money to survive, just resourcefulness.
Have you ever read Evasion, from CrimethInc?