I’m 16 years old have had depression for 3 or 4 years have felt unwanted and not loved every body around me is fake even my own family talk about me behind my back my dad is always yelling at me for not being who he want me to be and compares me with others, my mom is always depressed saying she wants to die i am so tired of the same things fights and arguments i have thought about suicide but i am scared of pain i never been scared of death i’m just scared of the pain i am going to experience and if things are going to be better … i cry every night because i always have something to cry about my mom always look for a reason to fight with me i have a low self esteem i cant take it no more i know that someday i’m going to commit suicide i just try to think about the positive things in my life but there is not many all i got is reasons to kill my self and reasons to cry i cant talk to nobody because everybody thinks i am crazy or they judge me  i sometimes wish to end my life. Sometimes i think i would make my mom’s life easier if i died because she yells at me that she regrets giving birth to me.
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i understand this and i’m about your age too (i turn 16 in four days) and i contemplate sucide all the time
i have had depression for about ten years too
Its hard to try and live with it i just cant depression kills me and breaks my heart little by little
The thing to focus on is that this situation is only temporary! The time you’ll spend at home with your parents is a small portion compared to the rest of your life. Not too long from now you’ll be out in the world, getting a career, making friends, and finding love. Those people will mean the word to you and you to them. Don’t let your depression or the things your parents do and say rob you of that! I know it’s SO hard to think that way when you’re going through it but just try to remember that it gets better and the problems you’re facing today will just be a distant memory. You’ll be an amazing parent someday if you learn from their mistakes and choose a better life. I’m SO sorry you’re in pain and lots of hugs from a stranger who understands what you’re going through!