when it’s your fucking sister
your best friend
the one you did everything you could for
and then in the end you couldn’t even save her
i spent 19 years with you and i couldn’t stop anything
i failed
life just isn’t important anymore
i rather risk the afterlife to be with you
i just have to figure out how
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Aw, hun, I don’t even know what to say and I can’t pretend to relate to your particular type of pain. I haven’t lost a sibling to death, but I have lost my siblings to my own mistakes. And I live for someone currently who leaves me in his dust constantly. I know the pain, losing someone whose simple presence is the only thing you live for, it’s devestating. All I can offer is an empathetic ear and kind word.. I can’t say I wouldn’t be thinking of doing what you are. I can only say that I feel your pain. Hey, go on youtube.com and listen to Ramallah “Life Goes On”… it’s about rape, (which pertains to my situtation), but it’s also about moving forward despite the cruelest realities….
So sorry.