an old friend asked me why i was “still with it” when he saw my scars and i joked that i didn’t drink enough.
i’m sick of long sleeves.
i’m sick of scabs.
does anyone here know a good substitute?
i’ve ripped paper and thrown ice cubes, gone for walks and runs and paced and called friends, nothing i’ve tried calms me down like a box cutter.
i’m a terribly, terribly obsessive person, and i’ve got an image stuck in my head and i haven’t been able to shake it for weeks.
SOS
every time i close my eyes, i see my wrist gashed open.
i’m so sick of cutting and so unable to stop.
i don’t think i want to die this way
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Something that really worked for me was playing with candle wax. The intense heat of the wax was enough to satiate my urge for pain as well as release endorfins, but it didn’t scar or actually physically hurt me at all. If you think this may be a trigger for you or leads to you want to hurt even more then don’t do it… try to avoid any pain substitutes at all. The best thing you can do when you are feeling this way is talk to someone. Or try to keep yourself occupied – watch a movie, paint something… push the dark thoughts away until you are better equipped to handle them
dont be afraid to show your scars. its a part of you
Try cutting something esle, like wood or leather, with a knife. Not too big, or you’ll go through the material quicker and need more sooner, but not too small or dull that you can’t visualize what the knife is doing. Helps me sometimes. Hope it helps you.
it’s not a part of me that i want every person i know to see.
@lost and found
i’m definitely going to try that
thank you <3
Lift weights
thank you all for suggestions <3