bad night
slit myself up enough to breathe again
laying in bed in my freezing cold room,
in my empty apartment
dont move
dont sleep
just smoke and listen to things that keep me calm
i don’t know why i’m posting this here,
i just feel really fucking alone
i push everyone away, then complain when they leave
i hate this
“this weather has me wanting love more tangible,
something i can hold,
it’s gettin’ cold”
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Maybe I should add a comment on someone else’s post (sorry just saw this) Darko, you are not alone. Did you cut yourself bad?
bad is a relative word.. nothing that needs stitches though.
i’m starting to feel like i’m not alone, so thank you, honestly, for that.
Darko, good that you don’t need stitches. Try to refrain from any more tonight. Is there anything else you are doing?
i think i’m done for tonight
i was chain smoking and looking up music, but i think i’m going to try to sleep.
but first i want to see if you’re okay, are you?
Darko yes. I think so. Things are a bit battling in my head, but I am strong enough to get through to tomorrow. Get some sleep.