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There comes those points in your life where you just want to walk away from it all. When you feel like you’re nothing, like you have nothing, like you are worthless, when you have no one. You just want nothing to do with anyone, or anything. You just want to leave it all. You want to go away to where you can be perfect and no one will judge you. There’s times you want to just take everything back, every mistake you’ve made, you just want to take it all back. Yeah, we are humans, we make mistakes. But there’s those mistakes you know you can ever let go of, but you’d do anything within your might to take it back. Those mistakes where you feel like you’ve ruined your life, and other peoples life. You feel like your life is full of nothing but regrets. When you hurt the one you love over and over again. You just want to walk away so you don’t hurt them again. But you know you can’t live without them. The times where you come so close to saying goodbye. But cannot let them go, no matter how hard you try. Just being around them gives you the butterflies, and you never wanting that feeling to subside. You don’t want to have to see them with another person. You just want them to be with you, and only you. It’s pretty simple after you get used to it. If you truly love someone, you will never let them go. In 9 days, it will be my boyfriend and I’s 9 months. We met three summers ago, and instantly I thought he was a really cute guy, after that day I never talked to him. Until my my freshmen year. The first day we met, we talked like we had known each other our whole lives. But when we started dating, my freshmen year, I was so nervous and shy around him. We broke up a few times and got back together, on and off that year. Than after breaking up after the third or fourth time, we stopped talking for 4 months. Than he sent me a message over facebook in the summer. Than we started dating on July 27th 2011. I know that this is true love because we are still together after 3 years, after breaking up on and off, we are still together, he’s the love of my life, and my bestfriend. Of course we have had our rough patches. Those patches we thought we’d never get past, but we did. And we are still together, we have made our mistakes, but hopefully we learned from them. We have made so many unforgettable memories. And hopefully there’s so much more to come. We have had our fair share of fights, but from now on, we are going to try to work and do better together. We spend a lot of time together, he always makes me smile, and never fails to make me laugh. He’s super funny, and so adorable, I’m proud to call him my boyfriend. We spend all weekend together pretty much. I always have fun with him. I couldn’t ask for a better boyfriend. Sometimes I wish he knew that. I wish he knew how important he is to me. And that I am sorry for making them mistakes I made and hurt him. I wish he truly knew how sorry I am. From now on, I am not going to do anything to risk losing him, because I know I can’t do it without him. He’s a great guy, with an amazing personality. He’s very smart too, although sometimes he might not show it. Haha. But everyone is that way. There’s times when I feel like I just never want to see him again, but I know I couldn’t go 3 days without seeing him. He’s my entire world. People don’t get us, or our relationship, but we are doing just fine without everyone, we can do it on our own. I get really frustrated when people try to tell us what to do in this relationship. We have our trust issues, and we have our insecurities, but someday we will reach an understanding, I hope I can spend the rest of my life with him. Just seeing him makes my day 100 times better. We have some really good times together, we both hate fighting, but sometimes, we can’t help it, now we have a solution to help us to stop fighting. I love him with everything, And at the end of the day, I run through our conversations, our day together, and I just know how much he means to me. 

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