i’m young and stupid and niave and melodramatic,
i realize
but i need to be told so.
in my heart, i can’t see how i can be anything but alone.
i’m utterly devoted to someone who wants to forget me.
i have every reason to hate him, but my soft heart aches for him and no one else.
these thoughts aren’t like me, but tonight, it’s just him on my mind.
him i wanted to forget when i took a handful of painkillers,
awh, this drowsy numbness is better than missing him.
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“lovers and madmen have such seething brains, such shaping fantasies, that apprehend
more than cool reason ever comprehends.”
shakespeare said it best when he said that.
you are not stupid, naive or melodramatic. you are sick with love.
jmvsic this is the second time you’ve said something that drastically changed my perspective.. the second time you told me something i HAD to write down and remember.
thank you, truly, for being here and posting. youve helped me a lot.
how young are u?
i cannot claim to know exactly how you feel, but i do know what it means to love someone who refuses to allow my love into their heart.
i have been physically abused in the past. i have been emotionally tormented by bullies when i was younger as well… but there is no pain i feel more intensely than that of this broken heart. i would gladly suffer the pain and abuse many times over again, if i knew that she would be there again, to comfort me, to hold me, to be my friend.
i am more than alone without her. i am empty.
and i am sorry you feel in a similar way.
@traptsoul I’m 21
@jmvsic i would suffer the pain and abuse i’ve been through to have him here with me too.
i’m empty as well, and sad that you understand.
also comforted though, so than you for sharing