Im 14 years old now and i’m very self consious about myself. I really hate myself. I’m ugly and useless. I have some suicidal thoughts but i’m stuck on what to do. I don’t seem suicidal but i’m very quiet. I don’t know if i want to kill myself or not. I don’t have a bad life or anything it’s just me, you know? I’ve thought about a plan on killing myself, saving up money and buying things for my family and my only friend, and then either starving myself or hanging myself. I don’t know if it’s the answer, i’m scared about it but want to go somewhere happy. Please help me answer myself.
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This is where I am right now too…I’m not sure whether or not I should take my life or not. I mean I tend to vacillate between “there are good things in life!” and “crap my life sucks I need to die!” I just don’t know it’s like I know there are things in life that are good but the situation I’m in just spoils all of it and I don’t want to try anymore. Like why the hell is living so hard? Shouldn’t it be enjoyable? I’m quiet too so I tend to just be reclusive so that may be part of it but I don’t know…I just felt I should respond because this is where I am at too and to let you know you aren’t alone I mean it made me feel a bit better to know I’m not some mentally unstable psycho who wants to die.
This is where I am right now too…I’m not sure whether or not I should take my life or not. I mean I tend to vacillate between “there are good things in life!” and “crap my life sucks I need to die!” I just don’t know it’s like I know there are things in life that are good but the situation I’m in just spoils all of it and I don’t want to try anymore. Like why the hell is living so hard? Shouldn’t it be enjoyable? I’m quiet too so I tend to just be reclusive so that may be part of it but I don’t know…I just felt I should respond because this is where I am at too and to let you know you aren’t alone I mean it made me feel a bit better to know I’m not some mentally unstable psycho who wants to die.
hi, well im 14 as well and you deserve to be happy no matter what you look like you will never and i mean never be ugly or ussless you are a special person and deserves a life. ive tried suicide many times and it always fails. your lucky you have a family and fiends i have none. time will pass and the happiness will come and you may not think so but it will. i hope one day you’ll find a reason to stay. make the most of your life as you only get one chance.
Thanks so much for the support. I know being like this isn’t much of a reason to kill myself, but i think the future is not going to be so bright and wonderful. I love everyone in my life and sometimes i have those really good times. I hope you find just as much happiness as anyone else. I’m sorry if you’re struggling through the rough times.
Gumpy
Thanks for the reply. It’s kinda hard to have positives about life but those really hard times come and you just don’t feel like it’s worth it. I try to keep very quiet and never talk so that i don’t get teased or judged, i think that what saves me from being bullied.
Gumpy