I can’t ever remember a time when I haven’t thought about killing myself. My life has always been a mess. I was an overweight kid so school was a nightmare. For some reason I always make the wrong decision or do the wrong thing. I don’t know if I’m evil or just stupid. My depression has gotten so severe that I can’t work. I live with my parents and hardly ever leave the house. Recently my one real friend stopped talking to me and it has pushed me over the edge again. I just feel like I can’t go on anymore. What’s the point? I feel so alone and hopeless. I’ve slashed my wrists but it’s never deep enough. I’ve taken pills but they were never enough. The worst part is I don’t see things ever getting better. How? I’ve been to doctors and I take antidepressants every day. Nothing works. It’s like every day I feel so much sadness it’s unbearable. Right now it hurts so much inside I want to scream. I just wish this life would be over.
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hey there, dont worry about it, i know its hard and im not in that position so wouldnt know how you felt. Ive lost friends before, friends that mean a lot to me, so i decided to make new friends, by doing that it made me very happy and my new friends are great and to be honest, i dont care about my old, fake friends anymore, so maybe try making new friends? And instead of cutting, maybe write a diary or get an old teddy that you can rip apart when your angry?
Yup. I know that feelings. I´m just 16 (from slovakia) but every day im so sad and angry i would like to kill someone,blow up or just stop exist. in my place its because of my family wich doesn´t understand me a i don´t understand them niether, and such a things but mostly cause of a girl,wich i love somthing about 3 years but she says that she doesn´t feel to be in love with me and that we should be just friends but even with this thing i still feel like im loosing her day by day more and more…… OK i could write a bit more but i thing this is enought…and sorry for some bugs in the test i learn enslish just 4th year