I’ve failed. I am absolutely pathetic, and it’s my own fault. There’s no reason for me to have failed that class. None. And yet I did.
I’ve let my teams down, I won’ t be able to run in district and I won’t be able to play in the first three scrimmages. I am a pathetic excuse for an athlete….for a team mate
This is just one more simple task that I have managed to fuck up, way to go Aj. Way. To. Go.
I went for a run on a busy road, and I couldn’t help but think how easy it would be to step off of the sidewalk and into the road…
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I know this is going to sound condescending. But when you are young everything seems much more important than it really is.
First of all, it sounds like you are putting way too much pressure on yourself. Setting up some sort of internal zero tolerance policy for failure is a recipe for disaster. Because when you do fail, you come unglued. Nobody can live that way. You are going to make yourself miserable
Everybody fails. All the time. No matter how successful they are. That’s what life is about. What matters is how you deal with it
It’s not that simple. I’m not as young but my user name says it all. I still have that internal zero tolerance policy. Every critique of what I do or say cuts me so deeply I really would like to die, one way or another. I’m not good enough for me so I’ll never be good enough for other people and vise versa. It’s a catch 22.A true need to be good enough. People are fickle and can turn away quickly. Failing when part of a team can be the most painful experience in the world because to me anyway it means they’re all judging my movements and finding me lacking in something vital. Of course it makes us miserable, that’s why we’re here.Animefan157 try and stick it out, and stick to the pavement. We all have off days in our chosen goals and this may have been one of yours. I understand the need to be the best and it really does hurt when we let ourselves down. Sometimes when the pressure is truly on we just fail to meet the task. I do it all the time and hate myself for it. And although you’re gutted and disappointed, you are already disappointed enough without taking on a perceived disappointment from others. I do that all the time too. It’s part of the reason I’m here at all. It’s another turn on life’s road and you just have to meet it head on. Train to win in what you can compete in. Do your sport for the love of it again and not for the medals for a change. You might fall back in love with it.I don’t know if I’ve been helpful at all but I hope so.You aren’t pathetic. You’re amazing for even being in contention for all that stuff! I could only ever dream of being that good.