I don’t feel loved.
I’ve been struggling with thoughts of suicide for over two years now and I can never get over them. Some days I feel perfect; I’m happy and I feel like I can make it through the day. Other days are far beyond my control. It’s difficult enough trying to make it through my first semester of college. I feel like I am going to fail all of my classes. I’ve lost hope in trying to salvage what I can from my life. My friends… Very few of them understand my situation. They’re oblivious to the fact that I feel miserable. I’m actually sitting in a room with them right now, typing this, and they’re just sitting there laughing. I don’t know how they can and I was just laughing with them a couple of hours ago. My mood has been constantly going from spectacular to a disaster in a matter of hours. If I have time to myself my thoughts deteriorate and I end up where I am right now; crying, in pain, desperate for anything but this.
I don’t want to type anything else.
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i’m sorry that you feel like this, and unfortunately i understand it exactly
i miss more classes than i attend
i feel loneliest in a group
desperate for anything but this really sums it up.
i don’t come on here that much anymore
i hope you find peace
<3
I feel the exact same way as you.
I feel as if I’m going trough the exact same feelings you’re going through. I also feel as If I’m failing all of my subjects in college but for some reason don’t feel as if I can do anything about it. I don’t have the energy to do anything about it, I feel emotionally drained. I used to have a fantastic group of friends which I have completely cut out of my life because of my stupidity. I feel as if no-one gets me and I now don’t have many friends to talk about my problems with. They either don’t understand or judge me. I’m seriously hating school and just want to leave. I hope everything sorts itself out for you, and if you ever need to talk to someone I’m here. I know what it’s like not having anyone to talk too, so please feel free to do so if you need too.
Thank you for taking the time to reply. It honestly means a lot to me; to know that people are in my situation, too. I wish we could all see each other and just have a huge hug.
At least today is a better day for me. I’m so sorry if it isn’t for you. I wish it will get better for me and you and everyone else feeling like this. Nobody deserves to be in this much pain.