I know exactly what you are going through… I’ve been exactly where you are and still am in some aspects, I don’t really know what to say to you, since we are going through the same, all I can’t tell you is that you should stop thinking about your ex, is not worth it, he is not in your life anymore and going back it’s going backwards, that’s never good, I feel like I have no true friends, I feel like I’m alone and noone cares… but I try to think that I still have a future, goals to achieve, the life I’ve always dream of and that only I can make it happen, nothing comes easy and I want to do it all for my self and by myself and prove that I need noone to be happy and achieve all I want, if someone comes, a boyfriend, a friend, husband… It’s because they do belong to my life but if they leave, that means I deserve better, I try to keep it possitive, I keep working on it, try not to give up, I know it can be better, because it is better, all we need is patience, so keep it positive, don’t think about anyone else, think about yourself cause people passes through your life like the air and then just leave, that’s why you have to think more of your self and what you want for you, those who are meant to stay, will not leave you, but you don’t have to let your life, esteem and happiness depend on others.