i think i must have already gone crazy. i am in a room full of ppl and all i can think about is stabbing myself or standing up and screaming at people.   And they have not really done anything to me – but i dont like people.  i feel judgement when there probably really isnt any.   I feel scorn.  I am never accepted in their groups.  i feel small and weak and like i simply do not belong on this shithole planet.
i am not exactly sure wtf anti-social means, but i am guessing i am it.   i wish they would just nuke the whole freakin world and the planet could start over without ppl messing up everything.
arg.  Sorry – just venting.
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trust me, youre not alone
I know how you feel I live each day without no friends I dont look for them either I have so much hatred towards the world and towards myself. I know how you feel but we are not alone . No matter how lonely we feel. We just gotta keep trying to find what we need
thanks for the replies……
I understand how you feel. Im a loner. Im always alone in school. I see kids my age in a group, having fun and laughing. Why are they having fun when im not? They are laughing, are they laughing at me? Is it because they think im pathetic? I’ve been picked on by groups before. Not pleasant. So many people like me have friends, why dont I? I hate people so much. I feel like an outcast, so alone. I talk to people but im not in their group, im not their friend. They could give s*** about me. If I left, absolutely no one would notice. Im invisible. In movies, they always portray loners in groups. Makes me laugh. Hey, lets be miserable loners together…