My teen years were hard my mom died and my dad remarried. She was a *****. But i grew up married my high school bf. We bought a house had a baby, a boy. I thought id left depression behind. Baby got sick, it was cancer. So at 23 i was fighting th battle of my life. Baby died wen he was two. Marriage failed. My husband was in soooo much emotional pain. I couldn’t help. I was depressed. Im still depressed . I can’t seem to let go andmy family wouldn’t understand. Its been almost 3 years they’d say. I can’t open up to them how depressed i am. They r strong people. Lifes to be lived. So i just suffer, and dwell on th past and what should have been. Am i suicidal? Frequently. Here is the only place i can admit I think about it. I wish I had died instead of my baby boy.
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((( hug )))
Sorry for your loss I can’t imagine the anguish you are going through
Your life is worth living! I’m so sorry for you and your baby boy, but try to keep in mind – that your life is beautiful and worth living too!
What you went though makes me feel like a wuss for being depressed over what I am going though. ((((HUG))))
I’m so sorry about what you’ve been through ! It’s awefull !
You should really think about going to a doctor ?
Your family won’t understand it’s not there son that they’ve lost. But they should be compassionate. It’s not fair. Loss is not fair. People shouldn’t go through it. But we doz
I really think you should seek help, you shouldn’t be made to suffer like this