hi, well 2 days a go i woke up very disappointed, i woke up from a coma and now im alive and it sucks! i cant breathe on my own and i have liver and stomach problems. now i have so much pain its not funny. my mum is helping me write this cause i have trouble thinking and writing. i dont see how my attempt survived, i did so much to try and make this work but it failed! i drank a whole bottle of bleech and some other shit as well as takning at least 70 pills, how the hell didnt that fail! why do i have to live why cant i just die easily? i only want to be happy. i need a friend im so lonely. im nearly 15 and i only weigh 31 kg. im sick of living with pain! i need someone to talk to but i have no one. when i was told i had died, i was so gutted when i woke up and told i surived but only just. i have to have surgery and its freaking me out. the only thing im excited about is the surgery being very dangerous and i might not survive, how great will that be! i feel really lonely and utterly depressed, if i could walk i would be out the door by the click of a finger!
i want all the pain to go away and i just want to be happy and normal. im just an ugly stupid worthless person. i feel like im not cut out for this world. i cant stop crying and i cant sleep eat or drink because its hard and half the time i cant swallow and when i do it just comes straigt back up. i might be in hospital for a couple of months which means over my birthday and christmas. ive never had a normal birthday or christmas, something is always wrong with me. why does life have to be so hard? i just want to die 🙁 im so lonely…. and worthless!Â
will you talk to me?
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I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but it just wasn’t your time to go. You’re 14 going on 15? This may sound hard to believe, but things can get better. I’m not saying it will be easy, but you’ve been given a second chance.
I’ve read a lot about near death experiences. Did you have one? I don’t necessarily believe or disbelieve in an afterlife, but I am interested in hearing what (if anything) people who have been pronounced dead perceive.
I wish you a speedy recovery. Best Wishes.
hi, i know things wont get better for me because i have a couple of dieases now one of them is excruinating pain which will spread and get worse. i was pronounced dead or something but when they started to say it i had the weakest pulse and stuff and only just made it. i thought i was dreaming but i saw my family that have died and they were waiting for me it could have just been a dream but then it started to fade and it was just black with faint light. when i woke up i stressed out and tried to run but broke my leg because i dont know how to walk anymore. i wish i died i wish i was just thin air.