Hi
Looking for some help, if that’s OK. I can go to places I have been before, no trouble in travelling there if don’t have to walk too far. But if I have to go somewhere new or speak to someone outside I really panic. Literally freeze. I cannot wait in line anywhere, and when I walk and someone walks towards me I freeze, so they walk into me. I live in London, this happens a lot. Does anyone know what I mean? Can you give me some pointers? I have to do something about this. No point in living if cannot buy myself a cake when I need it! 🙂
Seriously tho, this is not living. I’m normally a control freak ball breaker, reduced to a pitiful specimen. Makes me feel really lousy. Just keeping finding more and more reasons not to live. Need to try and sort some of this shit out, or …
Sorry for the miserable post, but if you can give me some advice I would really appreciate it.
Ta mushilly.
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Hi,
Do you get anxiety standing in line or…?
I’ve had exactly the same thing walking into people, as if my brain couldn’t process all the impressions quickly enough.
I was diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder, and put on Quetiapine, which is an antipsychotic drug.
It lessens the symptoms, but I’m not sure I’d reccomend it as it has some rather sinister side effects, it has turned me from someone who couldn’t hurt a fly to someone rather callous. Also, life becomes very boring, ’cause you don’t feel much.
My top recommendation would be seeking out these guys:
http://www.soterianetwork.org.uk/
They aim to help people cope with “mental illness” with as little use of medicine as possible, and the approach is based on sound science.
The problem with the conventional psychiatric system is that it is almost entirely drug-based, and also based on bad research.
Sure drugs can remove your symptoms short-term, but can actually make them worse long-term.
For instance, the drug I take, quetiapine, has been shown to shrink brain size by 10%.
Anyway, take care, educate yourself, seek out good help and guidance, and above all, don’t go along with anything you don’t want.
Thanks for the above post. The drug you mentioned is what they are trying to make me take, but I am trying to resist it. They threatened that I would not get any therapy if I don’t take it, but I got an advocate so I’m hoping they’ll back off at some point. Before I read your response I was coming round to the idea of the medication, but now I am rethinking, so really thanks. You don’t sound very callous to me tho, especially as you’re trying to help me!
Take care of you too.
I’m glad if it was of use to you. It sounds good you have an advocate.
Personally, I feel kind of violated because I was fed bad info and was pressured by my surroundings and out of desperation I went on drugs. I feel it has kind of screwed me up much more than any illness could. And now I’m loth to stop the drugs because I’ve got used to them as a crutch. But I do believe that the healthiest way long term is to use other coping methods than drugs.
I’ve had some success with a being in a stable environment, when I was doing my military service. Also, to me, it is so important to hang on to those people who genuinely get you, who understand you and respect your feelings, know how to listen, and whom you just really like.
“The system” (and the rest of the world) is made up of people, and some are overworked, some are a bad match, but some of them are passionate and can work wonders. I hope you meet some of them and make use of them.
🙂