They say..

They say nothing is worth taking your own life but sometimes it feels like the only thing to do..I love my family and what couple “friends” I have but do they love me? I know my baby sister, brother and daughter(NOT biological)do but they aren’t old enough to understand why I hurt and want to die. It’s not fair to them to wonder why sister/mama went away and never came back..They are the ONLY reason I haven’t. I keep thinking maybe if I did one day they would under stand but is it fair? For them to see everyone else upset when they don’t understand? FUCK!!!!!!!!! I don’t know.