I’m still in secondary school, and i’m in my last year, thankfully. But i cant stand it any more, i truly believe that one day i am going to explode. Practically everyone hates me in that school and the people that do like me just  tolerate me or i bring them down with me.  the people that hate me… they smile at my face, they seem to think i cant hear them when they tear me apart. The only way i can get through the day is walking around with my headphones blaring with the promise of my blades at home. But i can still hear them, and i cant do anything about it, it just gets worse. i just want it to end.
i know writing this sounds pathetic, and i just seem like a whiny brat…but yeah, i needed to get this off my chest.  i have so many secrets i cant tell people, not even my best mate, under no condition can i willingly tell her i still cut, since i promised her i would stop. I’ve done things to get my mind off them, and it wasn’t enough, ignoring everyone, acting nice, reporting them, cutting, revenge,  punching things. nothing works….. so yea. thanks for letting me get this off my chest, hopefully i wont explode.
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im older not in school havent been for years, but everyone treated me like crap in school during lunch i always hid out in a stall in the bathroom so everyone would leave me alone, no one ever wanted me around, i feel your pain, i couldnt crawl under a rock deep enough to get away from all the assholes that” fake “friended me, i hope ya dont explode either
thanks, its good to know im not the only one who went through this