I tried to be productive today but I failed. I had planned to do things like be creative and make a moodboard and draw but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it, whenever I tried I just felt the frustration of failing I really can’t explain it. I haven’t really done anything productive in a while the last time I did I wasn’t really passionate about it like I’d like to be. The reason I wanted to be productive today was because I’m on break and have no school so I thought it would be a good idea to do something I enjoy but also because I wanted to remember this week.
Thanks for listening
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Hey Hopefuldreamer,
Perhaps you should cut yourself some slack and do a whole bunch of NOTHING? When i am like you are now…I try to use the time for reflection…and music definitely helps. But I allow myself to have unproductive days when I need to…I call them mental holidays!! 😀
Apathy sucks though doesn’t it? Like I had to shovel the snow today…and thinking about doing it made me tired. Eventually I just went out and picked up the shovel…threw the first shovelful at the neighbour’s windows…and the snowball fight was on. Loser had to do the snow removal….and I ain’t no loser today!! When you can’t find the energy to make a start…I know it is hard…and then you start making excuses…and then feel guilty for not doing something…and BLAH…waste of time, nothing gets done and you feel worse. So cut your self some slack…turn on some GOOD music…not that angsty shit…and see what happens. Take a mental holiday!!!
Do you need me to write you a note? hahahaha 😀
Enjoy every second possible
Amakua
I can’t do anything at the moment I’m too frustrated
That was my point!!! Do nothing!!! Chill out and listen to some good music.
Amakua
I don’t know why but I’m too frustrated to do anything since I’ve left school for break all I can do is listen to online radio and watch cartoons
Hey Hopefuldreamer…but isn’t that what a break is all about? 🙂
I dunno…I would sit around in my jammies and eat cereal straight outta the box…but maybe not the cartoons…ahaha My kids would have me locked the fuck up…hahaha
Is there something in particular you had to accomplish? If not…enjoy the break today…maybe tonight you’ll get some sleep…real sleep…and maybe tomorrow you’ll actually want to do something…maybe even go outside? 😀
No worries…maybe you just need more structure in your day…like in school…but for now you are on break…take advantage.
Amakua
No in school I stress out doing stuff I don’t like but when I try to do stuff I used to enjoy I can’t