I’ve gotten tired of posting because I feel as if all I ever do is talk about one or two issues that bug me, which make me feel like a broken record. Work, money, jobs, careers, employment, vocation, occupation; I hate them all with a passion. And all of them are essentially one thing; work, productivity, financial worth, personal marketability, merit, utility.
When I was a kid, I grew up watching both my parents toil away from one job they hated, to another job they hated, to another job they hated…. and ever since I was old enough to work myself, I’ve repeated that trend with astonishing regularity. Why must a person be, “productive,” in order to survive? Opting out of this system is not legally plausible; homesteading is out of the question unless you have a residual income from something to cover obligatory taxes. Squatting is out of the question, as land-owners are not too keen on trespassers these days. Continuing as I have will drive me mad, and applying for jobs is like trying to fill a sieve with sand. At some point, after being unemployed for so long, it seems that future employment prospects dwindle to a near-nonexistent volume.
And still, for all my worry and woe, the biggest thing on my mind is not being able to afford Christmas presents for friends and family. I could make something, sure, but would that be appreciated as much as some intensely well-thought out gift I might pick out, were I gainfully employed? I used to spend weeks agonizing over what to buy people on Christmas, when I had an income. Now I spend weeks agonizing over the fact that I can’t buy anything for anyone. Couple that with a family household already teetering at the edge of a financial precipice due to poor money-management, and I have to wonder why I don’t go sleep in a homeless shelter. It’s easy to think the status quo is a constant; that things can go on the same way forever, but the reality is never like that.
I hate this god-forsaken thing we call civilization. Here’s hoping it’ll be wiped out before the new-year. I’m not holding my breath for that, though.
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Thank gosh…I thought I was the only one who ever thought like that.
“Why must a person be, “productive,†in order to survive? ” would be my favourite line here. Of course, productivity is good. But being tied down by money, by a piece of paper with some fancy writing, numbers, and a BELIEF that it is worth something – having that control my life is what I fear the most. In the end, when all is said and done, money is perhaps one of the most worthless things. And yet I must do everything I don’t want to to have it in my life. It controls me.
A goddamn piece of paper.
The other guy is better than me because he has more pieces of paper…I don’t get that.
I’m totally blow away by this book: http://www.amazon.com/Evil-Plans-Having-World-Domination/dp/1591843847
It exactly tacles the points that are bothering you. Here’s also a little cartoon by the same author to give you an idea where this is going: http://www.gapingvoidart.com/more-life-p-1924.html
good luck!
I now what you mean but we need to get a gripe.
Quito de la Roque suffers a shock defeat. Seemingly travelling best of all the Irish raider found nothing under pressure as Wayward Prince stormed to victory.
Sprinter Sacre runs in the Tingle Creek in about half an hour. Will post the results.
You know what my gripe is today? Every where you go there’s people. Its like I’m in an ant colony. Can’t even sit down in here because of the football supporters have taken over. Idiots.
Sprinter Sacre destroys Sanctuaire in the Tingle Creek winning hard on the bridle. Top class.
All I need now is Flemenstar to win the John Durkan Memorial tomorrow.
Woop Woop
That’s why I hate cities – it really is like a freaking beehive or an ant colony sometimes.
I’m worried about money, but not for gift giving. Usually in the past I would tell family not to give me gifts on Christmas and birthday, so I would not have to feel I have to return the favor because god knows most don’t care to give and I wasn’t the type to put on that mask of being fake. Since then I gave and received gifts when it wasn’t about what day, but the gift itself. I forever joke if you get my company that’s a gift itself, because how rare it be.
Orangish, “its the thought that counts” I feel to many people forget that, and making a gift is cool, if you have the energy and passion to do so. If a person can’t appreciate a gift that’s made perhaps that person they not worth the time you would put into it.
I think we once said something before on this whole holiday thing, and that open my eyes to not worrying about gift, which is excuse to make each other important, forcing people to not be selfish, forcing them to create moment to spend with family.
hah… I’m ranting, okay gift is not that important if its based on the holiday alone is my point.
orangish: Everything you listed that you hate is basically everything that is part of the matrix we’re trapped in! It’s an illusive world of things that supposedly matter. Obligatory feelings of gift-giving around the holidays is, in my eyes, a matrix time-waster. It’s a tradition that keeps our emotions and actions trapped in a meaningless cycle.