If your hear to criticize me or call me attention seeking, please just leave me alone.
ever since I was born I was always the odd one out, the 3rd wheel. My voice and my face is annoying and ugly and I know you people are gonna be like your not ugly but trust me I am. My dads always hated me and sometime last week, he snapped. He described in vivd detail about how I was useless and said he wished I never existed. He called me a loser and a few other names that I can’t say (I don’t swear) but I’m 14. My parents were never there for me, always working and my sister know sin annoying and I get told to shut every time I open my mouth and when I don’t talk I get yelled at for not participating and I get insulted everyday. I’ve been cutting for 3-4 weeks now and my mom found out last weekShy sister saw and rolled her eyes then told my mom. My mom called me stupid and now everyone hates me even more. At school, everyone hates me even though I slap on a happy face everyday, I’m dying on the inside. People call me gay all the time and I am 100% sure I’m straight and it hurts a lot. I found a note calling me gay and people talk about me behind my back. People do it to my face too and it hurts a lot. i was in tears in gym the other day. Don’t tell me to ask my parents, I know they won’t help and they still think I’m stupid.. I had really strong thoughts of self death last week and I just wish I had a different life.
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Man your only 14 and school is rough for everyone. Don’t let people get to you because your still a kid and in 4 years when your out of school the popular kids will be a bunch of losers because there to stupid to get a real job. Even if your parents don’t care imagine how your grandparents or aunts or uncles or even friends will feel. Grow up and be successful in spite of the people that don’t believe in you prove them wrong. Keep your head up kid and don’t let anybody get you down because all in all they are just people like you. Well I hope you don’t go through with it sincerely LJ.
You may well be ugly at 14 but that doesn’t mean you have to be an ugly adult. Eat healthy and exercise and you will reap the rewards the rest of your life.
im sure your beautiful to God. and im also sure no-one on this website will judge you. were all here for either support or to say goodbye and have someone listen. im 13 andhave problems with family but nothing as bad as you. I hope you stay strong im sure you’ll amount to something wonderful!
Just don’t care what other people say. This is your life and you control it, not them.
Thanks you guys. I’m trying.
What others think of you is THEIR problem to deal with – not yours. the only thing you can control (as mentioned above) is your life, actions and feelings. you can’t force others to change what they think – also mentioned above is that you may not remain “ugly’ forever (although i understand that just the time to graduate school seems like forever away)
The key is your own perception and goals – i dealt with similar issues when i was in school – being a thin and small boy through most of my school years left me dodging bullies most of my academic career – but because i was considered “not a threat” it allowed me to become friends with girls that would normally be wary of the intent of other guys – i learned to listen to others who were most often forced to be quiet while others boasted of their strength, beauty and conquests.
if your parents think you’re “stupid” that can remove the pressure of being “smart” – it removes expectations – you are liberated to quietly go find the subjects you love and really excel – bottom line is – when other people underestimate or belittle us – it means they either fear us so they’re trying to keep us down – or they have underestimated our ability which means we can excel and learn without their interference because they don’t think we’re ever capable … but whatever you do – do things that are good for YOU and your future – let others worry about their feelings and actions
stealth dawg
Dawg i wanted to say hi and Merry Chistmas ti you! sorry about the hi jack ThisIsNoDemocracy