Oh, what a mess. I spent the last 10 hours crafting letters for various folk in my life. All are full of apologies, reasons why I decided to end before my natural time, all of them include broad strokes leading up to my current condition and one letter is more specific indicting named individuals of serious criminal activities, which, in part, is responsible for my decision.  Is this a cheap way to go? I don’t have the strength or interest to pursue justice in a normal setting, but the notion of cleaning my slate with hard facts and home truths is rather morbidly appealing….. Or should I just forget the whole incident and let it go? Is there really any pleasure in seeking ‘revenge best served cold’?  I don’t want to be misunderstood that the ‘only’ reason I chose to exit was solely due to the behaviour of others, but it certainly did impact the quality of my life and at the very least they should be prosecuted for what was committed. I am the only one outside their group who has documented proof and details.   If only I had the balls to face them in court now…..But I don’t.
Writing personal letters to my friends was not an easy task. I tried to give as much thought as possible so as not to hurt anyone, but it was a struggle. I don’t know how I would react if I was the recipient of such a letter.
2 comments
Wally8
I don’t think it’s a cheap way to go. Justice will be obtained just not in the usual way.
From experience – I lost my little brother right before his 21st bday, if you have so much to say in writing, maybe you ought to try it face to face (minus the whole death part). Let the people who love you know what is going on so they have a chance to help, that is the best and first way to make sure you’re not hurting anyone. Please give them a chance to help you.