I’ve put my affairs in order, my letters are written and an apology letter to the person who finds me. my method is unclear but it’ll probably involve a hotel room with me handcuffed the bed, overdosing and placing an exit bag  over my head. I will take a months worth of prescriptions along with co coda mol and anything else I find. I’ll give myself the date of January 2nd. I already feel calmer knowing I’ve got things in order. Sweet relief here I come. No more flashbacks, no more bulimia, depression or suicidal thinking, this is it and I cannot wait. January 2nd will allow for my family to have one last Xmas and new year then I’m outty! Peace to all of you out there x
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Your organized, that’s admirable.
I am more off a do fucked up shit and see when it happens sort of girl, I don’t want to know.
I mean planning involves cleaning out private stuff, and notes, and deleting you history. I would also like to have a different name but I let go of that perfection in order to get things done.
Are you organized outside this too?
Maybe you can teach me.
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How I’m going to check out
November 12th, 2012 by rocketman
1.) For starters I’m going to a terrific casino from Friday to Sunday and get the best room they have.
2.) I’ll make reservations at the best restaurant and spend about $300.00 just for dinner.
3.) I’ll take about $7000.00 cash just for gambling.
4.) I’ll stay up the whole time playing and if get attracted to a nice girl I’ll treat her real good all night long!
5.) And after I’ve had a real blast and it’s the wee hours of the morning I’ll say goodbye and go to my room.
6.) I’ll wipe my forehead and say wooooo glad that’s over with I’m tired and it’s time for the helium hood.
7.) I’ll make sure I leave a note on the door for the maid and leave a big tip on the bed.
8.) I don’t have a planned date for this adventure but I can do it when I’m ready.
9.) I don’t want to go out bitter.
“I already feel calmer knowing I’ve got things in order.”
That’s what I like about planning too. January 2nd is so soon, do you have time to do everything by then?
Rocketman… sounds like you’re gonna have too much fun first, maybe you won’t be in the mood to kill yourself after? :\
I’ll have enough time I’m sure and yes I like to be organised I can’t cope otherwise. The letters are most important for me to get right, I want them meaningful and explanatory and I’m not going to leave anyone out. Unless something life changing happens or I get a frigging miracle I will be gone January 2nd…mark my words. Love to you all. So glad I found this place as an outlet x
yeah, rocketman.. you shouldn’t go out bitter, might become a ghost and haunt someone.. lol
Good luck, catfreak. If you feel like sharing any more of your experiences in organizing this I’d like to hear about it 🙂