I’m back in the dark again. Â I’m cutting again and what really sucks is I can’t find my good knife.
There was this girl, and I started really liking her, and I kept baking her stuff and trying to be nice and stuff, and we were talking pretty much. So I wrote her this poem asking her to homecoming. And since then, shes just ignored me, to the best of her ability, in every way possible. I keep thinking I’m over her, but then I see her, and I just realize I’m not, not at all. I just tried so hard, it makes me feel really worthless, because I tried so hard, and it didn’t work at all. Plus, I just keep looking into the future, and seeing nothing else. And on an unrelated topic, I feel like I’m just losing who I am. And I just feel really sad, for no further reason. Even with all the good stuff going on in my life too.  Plus, my mom is really stressed, and when shes stressed, she gets angry really easily, and its not fun to be in my house.
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theForgotten ,
I knew a girl like that once man I was so……….. Upset at the time it was not funny I got over it finally and wound up with her sister and a few, well more than a few, well let’s just say a bunch, ok a big bunch! More girls after that, funny though I thought about her the other day? Oh well her lost.
Girls are bitches sometimes.
But it’s nice to hear that you were good to her. Many girls appeeciate that. Find another girl. Someone that would love you back. Usually it’s the shy and quiet ones. They wont make the first step, so make it yourself.
Life is hard, but you can change it as long as you’re still alive 🙂
This site has changed since I was last here. People are so supportive where they used to just be all depressed and stuff. I like it. Thanks, guys.
@rocketman Thats a really inspirational story. Its really helpful. I hope I can get myself over her soon.
@sinine: She was shy and quiet, I thought it would work. I just can’t help being nice, and sometimes I wish I could help it, because it never seems to work out for me, but you’re right. Eventually it will work, and that will be the girl I want more than any other.
Girls like that don’t know what they’re looking for. I can’t tell you what her motives were, because no one except her knows. But I can tell you that there are nice, caring girls out there who will love you for you, so don’t give up! And that is coming from a girl who goes for the nice guys.
I know it’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now. But keep your head up, you will heal with time. 🙂
If you were that amazing to her then there is no way in hell she deserved you.
That girl sounds like an asshole. I’m sorry that you had to go through that none the less. It’s awful when your love goes astray 🙁 my heart goes out to you forgotten
@draven: It really means a lot to know that there are girls out there who go for the nice guys. I’ll keep looking, if I get out of this dark phase. And you’re right. I always tell people that time heals everything, but that doesn’t mean I believe it.
@demmissio: I don’t really know how to act around girls, I just try to be nice
@solitarywalker: Thanks, it really means a lot to know people care, she just seems so sweet and nice, I guess I get to see her bad side.
Again, I really love the support of this site. I haven’t seen that side of it before.
I really think you will get out of this phase. I say that because I was there recently. Long story short, my fianc̩ left me about a month ago. It was really rough the first couple weeks, but I have picked myself up and have almost completely healed now. I know how it is; I have days where I think I am over him, but then I hear something about him and his new girlfriend, and it makes me sad again. I just remind myself Рwhy waste my thoughts on him when he is probably not thinking about me?
That makes me sound like an oversensitive crybaby. That really sucks. Thanks for putting things in perspective. And you’re right. She doesn’t care about me anymore, so I shouldn’t care about her.
Haha not at all! Your feelings are your feelings – you cannot help the way you feel, and everyone reacts differently to situations. It’s never fun to lose someone you care about, regardless of how deep that “care” is. I hope you are doing better than when you posted this!