Why? Just why, is it that it’s always the same thing that happens over and over and over? People just constantly use me and never for a second take into consideration what I do for them? I’m sick of always being the one looking after everyone. The one who’s always there. The one who’s never appreciated, not even for a second. Everyone just always takes me for an absolute fool. I’m sick of it. I really am. I’d love just for a while if people could actually see how lonely I really am. Just how shit everything really is. But no one could be bothered to care about me. No one. Absolutely no one. I’ve never actually felt more alone this past year or two that I have my entire life. Everything’s just starting to really pile up and I can’t cope as much anymore. One of these days I’m going to just snap. But I don’t worry for myself, it’s everyone else. Some day someone is going to say something that’s just going to push me over the edge and I’ll just snap.
I literally just can’t anymore. It’s too much. Far too much for anyone to be dealing with. But it just really kills me how no one, NO ONE can see it. It’s so obvious how much I need someone right now but no one has the time to notice. It’s like I’m just floating by and the rest of the world is moving at the speed of light. No one notices me.
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We can see it, we notice it BlueOrchid. And we’re here to listen. But if you want help, then ask for it. YOU need to make the first step, not someone else. You can’t expect people to be mind-readers. If you truly want to be helped, ask for it. If they don’t give it to you, ask someone else. Somewhere, someone WILL eventually help you. You just have to be persistent.
That said, we’re here to help. We can help and we can listen. 🙂
I hear you. Sometimes I wonder how I should my power of invisibility. Maybe you should make some noise, From your post I gather you are the strong one in a group, you provide the adivce and the answers. Well its time to let people know you are having trouble, voice your troubles.Its what I did, now I see a councelor and am rebuilding bridges I have burned years ago.
people cant tell what your thinking.
ILU Ruins
Things will get you down and life’s a ***** **** that I can agree with…But you know what? You have family, friends and not to mention people on here who COMPLETELY understand what you’re going through! So pour you heart out to someone kid, be it us or people close to you or someone! my email is freshwaterwalker@gmail.com if you wanna email me what’s bothering you.
I really thought I was going to beat you to the first comment this time Sinine 🙂 Ive never typed that fast in my life.
Haha! I’m just sometimes too fast! Fast to helping people! Like a superman!
I appreciate what you have said to me, believe me I do. But I’ve tried. No one and I mean no one wants to know. I could be in the middle of trying to explain what’s going on to someone and they’ll literally ignore me and talk across me. It’s actually like something off a sit-com at this stage. Haha. And as well as that, I’ve had terrible experiences not with even pouring my heart out, but by just stating facts about what’s going on inside my head. Family? I have no family. I have a Mother, Father and a Brother, not a family. And friends? I have people who only want to know me if they have a problem, or I have something they want. I’m sorry for being difficult, I know how annoying it can be when you try to give someone advice and they just twist everything to seem crap.
And words can’t even begin to express whats going on anymore.
I know its not the same, but you can tell us. We arent going to turn you away.
We can understand if you talk to us. You can talk to us if no one else listens. We’ll listen. 🙂
Life IS difficult, but suicide is not a good choice. It’s permanent. You will cease to exist and have no way of affecting anyone anymore. While as you’re still alive, you can make choices and maybe some day unknowingly even save a life. 🙂 There’s always a good choice somewhere.
I feel used by others too.