Hey eve here.  Well you see my close friend killed himself on 12/05/12. I never met him but we talked on the phone and kikked a lot. He helped me with my suicide problem  He  texted me saying what he was going to do. Just my luck to respond 30 min. Late.  I feel as if I could have saved his life in those thirty minutes. He meant so much to me . He was the first one to know about  my  cuts. He told me to rub that stuff that takes away scars so I don’t have to look at my past all the time. We sang to each other all the time usually  Justin Bieber . His mom texted me that he was in the hospital and she wanted to know why he stabbed himself. He could have lived maybe if I texted back. I miss him. I never knew that suicide hurt others so much.
I tell myself not to cryÂ
2 comments
Hello Eve,
Very sorry for your loss…but yes…suicide is a gift that keeps on giving…sigh. Just remember that if you start feeling suicidal eh? Sorry I have no advice…cutting has never been my thing…kinda seemed counter-productive to me…but as you probably know…there are lots of folks on here that understand only tooo well. What I do know…is that the 30 minutes are irrelevant…you could not save your friend…that is the truth. Only one that can save any of us …is US. You were there for David and tried to help…that is amazing…a gift. But take that gift and learn from it. David would not want you to feel guilty…he would want to know that you found your own happiness somehow…wouldn’t he?
Peace
Amakua
BTW…I live just outside of Justin’s hometown…..not a fan…old lady here…but he is that cute eh?
You seemed Canadian! Ha. And thank you. I know he wouldn’t want me to feel guilty but it’s just so hard I really miss him. And me and David LOVE Justin!! In fact I’m going to see him soon (: Big Fan